Somewhere Over The Rainbow! :D

K!

2010-07-18T22:36:00.002+08:00

I wonder if anyone still visits this pathetic and dust-filled blog. I want this blog to be my ranting space if possible! I'm a mad girl who needs to always vent out my unhappiness, cos i can't contain unhappiness at all! D: The moment i start to contain those unhappiness, i'm sure on my way to exploding!

Life is not good at all. Studies in a BIG mess, and even worse for friendships.

Trying to get out Mushroom's claws and in the end? I fell into K's claws. I wanted to use K, just to divert away my attention for Mushroom. Possibility of 99.99% that i'm going to get hurt again. Oh well, what can you expect of someone who is not pretty, not smart and with no figure?

But reallyreallyreally, i like K, because he's really very nice and comfortable to be with. (:

Wish you will always be around!

2010-01-05T23:14:00.002+08:00

Did you lie?
Why such a coincidental?
And true, like what suansuan said.
Why i got so angry, disappointed and upset?
What if it's not a dance concert, but drama concert?
Will i get so angry?
Why i want to see your effort in going to band concert so much?
So what if you lie?
Why should i care?
What rights do i have to care?
What rights do i have to demand that effort from you?
What rights do i have to compare and compete with her?
Why i feel so uneasy when i realised you become a vicechair and she become a chair person?

2009-06-20T00:40:00.001+08:00

don't say i am stingy la!

there you go,

www.mynumber35.wordpress.com (:

though there will be ranting and complains from me time to time (again-.-).

but do enjoy your visit there!

but if uncomfortable, you may leave anytime. (:

Germaine(:

2009-06-01T22:49:00.002+08:00

ahhh, that damn wordpress is not working! :x
i wanted to blog so much la!
but when i come here, i lost all inspirations. :x
nvm then, hahaha.

might considering about coming back to blogger!
shall see first then. (:

ps. i realised my blogskin for blogger is very nice! :D

2009-02-17T20:52:00.002+08:00

the place for my thoughts becomes a place for ppl to spam.
and i am not tolerating that.
all my faults
but this blog got its dignity!
this blog does have a meaning for me.

sad thing is i can't bring the url with me.
so, i am leaving it here.
will come back, when it's time to.

HAITUS!

2009-02-15T20:12:00.003+08:00

shopping with weiting is funfunfun! :D
but i really spent a lot these few days. :x

done with the props making for class drama, for my group.
hooray! xD

and many tests coming up.
and this saturday's exchange with other bands is cancelled!
i was so excited about it -.-
boooooooooooo!
busy week ahead.. (like as if there's a week when i am totally free.)

2009-02-14T20:30:00.000+08:00

chatting with seesuan is fun! :D
cheer up to both of us. (:
no, and our sectionmate - him.

2009-02-13T20:48:00.002+08:00

hello! i haven't been updating for quite a few days?

Happy Belated Birthday to myself! :DDDDDDDDDD
i enjoyed 11Feb2009 a lot.
just for that day, i don't have to face all the dumb problems.
but when that day ended, all problems came back to me, again. 0.o
manymany thanks to everyone who wished me,
and those who gave me presents. :D

anw, i was deeply touched by weiting.
her present for me was marvellous! :D
what i adore that present is that,
she used her thoughts to create that present.
she even contacted my section, to help out in something.
i was so shocked when i saw this word "zeming" in the little book she did for me.
cos only my section calls me that, hahaha.
THANKS BESTFRIEND! :D
love you manymanymanymanymanymanymany! :D

so on 11022009, went out with weiting after maths remedial.
then went to eat dinner with liting at sumo house,
and had heart to heart talks. (:
big thank you to you 2, it was a wonderful day.
it was wonderful also because that i didn't went to band room that day?
LOLS, i can't deny that.
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today was good too. (:
black friday - supposingly will have bad luck right?
today, nothing bad happened to me.
for today's full band, i feel that it was fabulous! :D
okay, yup yup, trumpet made many mistakes, just like before.
bu today, we miraculously sounded better.
maybe we were standing throughout the band prac?
if that's the case, i want to stand every single time. (:

yup, i said before, only blog happy stuffs.
so for the unhappiness, i don't want to elaborate it.
byebyeeeeeeeee. (:

when i started to change for you, you chose this path for our friendship.

pre-birthday celebration

2009-02-07T22:32:00.008+08:00

today, i got my first 16th birthday present,
and had my first 16th birthday celebration.
thanks to my section. (:
i never thought they would be the first to give me birthday present,
first to celebrate it with me.

the story goes like this:
i ended the sectional late today, 1pm. meaning they got lesser time to eat lunch. but they were walking and packing so slowly! i was damn bushuang already, hence kept shouting at them, asking them to walk faster. then when we walked till outside ava room, they suddenly said dominic was at library there. then i said, "tell him quickly come, we meet him at the foryer.". "we got there find dominic la!" but hey, we maybe dun even have time to eat lunch already!!!! thus i tried to explain to them, but all of them insisted on going to find dominic. i was damn pissed off, to the extend i was going off to eat lunch on my own. when i walked towards the staircase, all of them were shouting like "eh germaine! come over! come over!"one even said, "dominic helped us bought our lunch liao!" their reactions were DAMN big okay! when i wanted to walk away. from there, i already knew that they are going to celebrate my birthday. at that moment, i felt like laughing, but i felt damn paiseh also. hahaha.

i am damn bad to be the destroyer of the surprise they were going to give me. xD
but there are too many loop holes in there already!
1) dominic came toay, then said that he forgot to bring trumpet to school. i guess i was in a hurry, that's why i didn't suspect anything.
2)when dominic said that he's going home to take trumpet, seesuan gave him her phone. i was like 0.o? then she said "i scare he loses his way mah!"
3) dominic kept calling them, and i wondered why he never call me.
4) they kept asking me to end sectional at 12.30, when they know that i always end sectional late on saturday.
5) dominic took damn long to come back to school, but i didn't realise.

i really appreciate all these they did for me.
although i didn't mention that infront of them.
yanqian asked me this when they went to buy drinks.
"you happy mah? are you touched by us?"
i only answered "you think my heart is made of metal de ah?".
my answer is yes, i am happy, i was touched by them.

my little junior is really capable.
he really never brought the trumpet to section.
cos he was afraid that i might find out if he did bring trumpet to school.
thus he carried the trumpet to buy cake and present,
then headed back to school.
so, this shows that small sized ppl also got enormous strength de okay! xD

though today's brass sectional for trumpets was gay shit,
but i am still quite happy for overall.
because they putted in their effort in celebrating my birthday,
something worth to be appreciated.
not forgeting that i have not been talking to them very nicely like the past very often already, due to syf - playing and attitude problems.

no matter what, i am happy today! :D
thanks for everything my juniors!

my birthday cake! :D

birthday present! :D
name given by section: overture

lols, there're jacob(a soft toy dog) and candide(a soft toy stitch) in my section cupboard now!
but i decided to keep overture at home, cos i want to hug it when sleeping every night. (:

okay, a wordy post again.
anw, since this celebration will be part of the beautiful memories i kept,
not right to post things regarding to unhappiness right?!
yup, today was a happy day. (:

first day of 2009 feburary

2009-02-01T23:50:00.004+08:00

guess who is this? xD

hohoho, today's hop bai nian was fun! :D
but not many ppl went.
total got only 7 ppl. :x
but small group got its advantages also.

amk hub - winston's house - my house - andy's house - zhen siang's house - home

winston lefted after visiting my house, cos of pure geo test. :x

anw, ate lunch at andy's house.
ate dinner at zhen siang's house.
we felt damn bad la, cos we ate before zhen siang's family. :x
hence to compensate, we helped to wash dishes!
he was trying to stop us, but failed.
and he looked at us,
and asked, " you all like to wash dishes a lot ah?!"
anw, i found another hainanese! xD
and also sort of found/gain back 2 friends. :D

i really appreciate today a lot. (:
thanks for the enjoyable, wonderful and great day! :D
realisation..

2009-01-26T22:12:00.007+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
to celebrate this festival,
i am opening my blog agian! :D
nah, not because of this. hahaha.
the reason is because i just feel like opening it. (:

everything's the same, just like the previous years.
but! ONE unusual thing happened this year.
i called it a miracle.
i talked to my cousins on my maternal side! :D
in the past, to me la, they(especially guys) seemed veryvery diao. :x
so don't really dared to talk to them.
but this year, one of my cousins talked to me first, before the rest arrived.
ya la, to some of you, it is nothing.
but it's really rare for me. (:
so played lame lame things together.
the way they tricked my nieces and nephew are damn funny. xD
my niece, xin yue, is damnnnnnnnn cute! :DDDDDDD
a pity i didn't take a photo with her.

they asked if want to go ktv together.
but sadly, i need to visit my paternal's side relatives also. :x
and as usual, i went there, and rotted.

yesterday's reunion dinner was alright also.
love the lao1 yu2 sheng1 part. (:
but i was bored to the extend i began to play the games in my dad's phone.
and plaed until i got headahce. :x

i am in festival mood already! like finally -.-
but whenever i think of them and that,
it TOTALLY ruined my day and mood.
i am shocked that they got such 'powerful' abilities to be able to ruin my mood,
as now is a festival occasion.
maybe i should give you 3 an award, for being so 'powerful'. (:
thank you SO MUCH ah!

unhappiness stuffs aside,
and photos now! :D

with my mummy! :D

with my little bro! :D

these 2 photos are to prove my bro's lousy photo taking skill. xD

with my sis! :D

my daddy bought a phone, which can be use to see tv channels also.
after reunion dinner at my grandmother's house,
my sis and bro kena hooked onto a movie, podcasted on tv.
they were damn exaggerating alright!
as they don't want to miss the show,
they watched the show on the phone, while sitting at the back of the lorry.
see how addicted they were!

a lollipop a day, keeps the unhappiness away! :DDDDDD
lollipop from dominic. (:

dominic in blazer.
took this when he was trying out in storeroom. (:

that's all for today bah.
i know, i still owe a lot of photos.
like those taken during band panic.
ages ago liao. muahahahaha! :x

Germaine :D

2009-01-24T20:04:00.002+08:00

one week never blog le!
what a record. (:
these few days were not bad bah.
surely there were good and bad ones.
cos nothing is perfect. (:

learning festival was alright bah, though quite bored..
after the career conference,
i have a new goal and dream le.
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.i want to be a lawyer! :D
yup, highly impossible.
but if there's a will, there's a way, right? (:

Happenings for the Week
1) winston came back to see section! :D he gave me a lot of advices, and some encouragements too. i feel so proud to say that i have such caring, wonderful and good senior! :D i will practice and improve even more, to repay what my direct senior have taught me. :D

2) sec3s went to adventure camp for 3 days. i thought i would die in band room on monday, cos there were me and my sec2s only. :x but surprisingly, things went fine. (:

3) learning festival - 3 days. we went to nyp on monday, discussion on class drama on tuesday and career conference on wednesday. (:

4) on second day, there was sec1 orientation camp fire. i went over to help weiting and her parents, by selling drinks. it is under psg de. i had fun with her! :D

5) on thursday, section was in a mess. one word to describe - disappointed, by the sec3s.

6) maths test on friday was okay bah, considering that i never studied for it.

manymany more, but i forgot le.
HAHAHA, short term memory ._.

2009-01-16T22:52:00.003+08:00

i am pressurised.
winston is going back 2morrow to see the section,
when everything in the section is in a mess!
he would be disappointed by the section, by me.

i really wish to be a normal student,
i dun mind being a mugger.
everything's breathing down my neck,
to the extend i can't breathe.

i want to leave this pile of fucking _______.
i should be more selfish.
why should i be so commited and dedicated,
when you all, especially YOU, is always thinking of excuses and ways to pon band?
even if it's your parent who don't let you to go band,
you can try to convince them right?
did you even try?
i gave almost all i have to band and section,
did you?

2009-01-15T21:18:00.002+08:00

no matter what, we are still one family isn't it?

i seldom scold ppl,

scolding you all doesn't make me happy too.

it's very shocking to know that i prefer the past senior trumpet section.

that one which consists of me, seesuan, yangyue and yanqian.

life were terrible for us!

getting insulted for every single thing we do.

how we struggled with our super-lousy playing techniques.

how we tried to pick ourselves up.

how hard we tried to build up a section from scratch.

how we encouraged one another when things weren't smooth.

how much i nagged at you three.

really, we really went through thick and thin.

seeing those photos, i feel that i saw through you 3 growing up, in these many months.

but why things turned out like that?

we also can bond, using the music we played for each other, for the section.

what is Happiness?

i feel the happiness when i enjoy playing with the section,

when i dunno need to worry that we might get scolded/play wrongly,

when we make music together.

2009-01-14T22:10:00.003+08:00

i dunno what's wrong with me.
i just feel damn pissed when i think of section.

i suddenly don't have patience to talk to them nicely,
to the extend that for the smallest thing,
i will over react.

for the shortlisted forms incident,
i am not reacting.
now, 2 out of 5 dun even have a proper tone.
very serious.
dun need to say "they sec1 only leh! and they just started playing cornet!"
the thing is that can tell they sort of not really suitable for cornet.
yes, it can be done, including that you all teach them like crazy.
put manymany effort in helping them.
jiayous then. (:

maybe i need to go see doctor,
to know what's wrong with me and my temper.

irresponsible ppl.

2009-01-12T21:24:00.003+08:00

it seems like you all are still trying to depend on me right?
walao eh!
ya la, bu shuang la, not happy la.
ya lor, if this time round you all DON'T HAVE sec1 juniors,
it's definately none of my business.
i can choose to be like other seniors - DON'T CARE AT ALL!
maybe i should start to say things like
"HAHAHA, your own daiji la! i am graduating soon! woots!"

fuck la!
the thing concerns YOUR DIRECT JUNIORS leh!
so you are waiting for me to hand up all the fucking forms for you?!?!?!?!?!?
COME ON LAAAAAAAA, SEC3 LIAO LEHHHHHHHH!
pushing all the saikang to me!
you think i am your maid ah?!
it's just like helping you to clear your butt after you have shitted!
what the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk!
when i was a sec3, i did many saikangs, cos seniors did not do it properly.
and now, i have to do saikangs for my juniors?!

seriously, i am already very tired le, from all these.
but i am hanging on.
i got so much to do, and like as if i can remember every single thing you told me!
in the first place, you already need to hand up on FRIDAY!

for this moment, i hate my section to the core.
not because of their playing,
because of their fucking attitudes.

2009-01-11T00:32:00.004+08:00

today was an interesting day.

yesterday night i was damn pekcek/angry/disappointed for some stuffs.
i was trying very hard to control my tears,
when talking to yanqian on msn.
thank you for being there, sharing my that horrible burden.

but all those flowed out when i talked to weiting through phone.
obviously not that she's the culprit who made me cried.
was talking about that same old topic - class.
till today, till this moment,
i still dun understand why i am being hated.
okay, conclusion is that after i cried, i felt much better.
big thank you to weiting! :D
thanks for being there to listen, to understand, to encourage, to be there for me. (:

for today.
i got a big surprise early in the morning! :D
i didn't expect that yanqian would come for sectional today.
cos he told me that his mum is not approving him to go saturday band practice.
dominic came too. (:
then sectional-ed.
next was spring cleaning.
i am proud to say that my little cute junior helped us to do spring cleaning! (:

for the very first time, we had a decent section lunch! :DDDDDDDD
went over to kfc and had lunch.
the whole section was there la! :D
except that... (only section knows.)
happy thing is that dominic went too! (:
and mostmost surprising part is that yanqian went!!!
worth to be happy about. :D

and blahblahblah, i am lazy to elaborate again.
then homed, and went out to meet bryant and zhenjie for justbrass concert.
met clara there!
since we never talk to each other for super long,
talked a lot. :D
supper-ed with clara and shizheng.
lastly, homed. (:

now, photos! :D
i took a great effort to take photos,
cos my "shy" juniors dun want to take properly.
there're a lot of candid ones.
but i shall post the better ones. (:

geraldine and zixin! :D

yanqian and dominic! :D
senior and junior.

me and yanqian.
as always, he did it on purpose. :x

section girls! :D
namely seesuan, geraldine, yangyue, zixin and me.

section! :D
i looked weird, cos i was in a weird posture when taking the photo.

okay. the end. (:

2009-01-09T23:40:00.003+08:00

problems, problems, and MORE problems!
why problems all come together?
all at once. :x

today's audition was fine bah.
just that never really found very potential ones.
did the audition with yanqian and seesuan today. (:
and as usual, yanqian always never failed to make me pekcek and smack him!

then went to ajc, for open house.
and backed to school for band prac.
and blahblahblah, you know. haha.

Dominic came today also. :D
when his class went to band room for the audition,
i was pretty crazy/excited, etc. O.o
he came, and started to play cornet,
saying that he only wants to play cornet.
cute right? xD

after band prac went to opposite.
stupid/hilarious stuffs happened.
took pictures, but will not be posting, due to special request. (:

now, photos! :D

zixin, geraldine, dominic! :D

failed shoot, cos of yanying! lols

dominic and yanqian! :D

me and dominic! :D

the end.

i am glad that you are there,
lending me your helping hand.
thank you.

2009-01-08T20:50:00.002+08:00

hohoho, my junior's damnnnnnn cute!
damn pro also.
yeah, he's dominic. :D
let him played cornet today. (:
enthu, hardworking, talented!

i also got another 2 girl dsa juniors.
tian wei and justine! :D

okay, back to today's audition.
hmm, okay bah.
just that the two ____(fill in words that you feel that i will put) BMs made me damn angry! :xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
i was seriously damn angry la!
okay, but as usual, my 2 juniors' accompany was great! (:
duh, yanqian and yangyue. xD

hope 2morrow will be a better day! :D

that's not the end to the story.

2009-01-02T23:42:00.006+08:00

2 Jan 2009 was quite a fine day. (:
this post will be super choppy, cos i got many things to say.

class 4/4
i feel veryvery out of place.
i don't know what's wrong.
but i just dun feel right,
and i don't like that feeling. :x

Performance
just like what i said in my last few previous post,
trumpet section screwed up the orientation performance.
okay, on a lighter note,
we screwed up caribbean variation 'only'. :x
i find other pieces were still okay bah.

then had partional and sectional in the afternoon.
after that, went to meet junjie to go to a talk.
his papa sent junjie's mum, 2 sisters, vanessa and me to that venue.
i never regreted going. (:
the talk was quite interesting,
excpet the financial thingy,
cos i dun understand. :x
awww, junjie's little sister is damnnnnnnnnnnnnn cute! :DDDDDDDDDD
but he claims that when she throws tantrum,
she's not cute at all. lols.

okay, then took mrt with them.
and reached home at 11 plus.

this morning, when i was preparing to go school,
i received yanqian's msg.
"i look/feel weird" - about his new uniform.
then i was practically laughing away already. xD
okay la, he looks fine. (:

and i am transferred to chen lao shi's class for chinese period!
happy - because i am in class as liting and junjie le! (:
sad - weiting's transferred to another class. :xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
and somemore my chinese deproved like nobody's business.
cos i slacked during all chinese periods for last year. :x
need to chiong for chinese le.

anw, when i ate lunch at 202 with section+zhenyee this afternoon,
liting and wenxiu went there too.
so i pangseh-ed them and went to talk with my besties.
(so sorry ah!)
i seriously love to talk to them la! :DDDDDD
with them around, i was damn high.
wenxiu and me were screaming with excitment when we talked about dai yang tian. xD

though sometimes i am very pekcek with section,
but i realised i rather go bandroom than classroom,
which is a very bad sign.
how long can i aviod?

somehow i wish that i am also in same class with liting.
random thought. :x

wordy post. :x

picture of the day!

junjie's little sister. :D
i think this was taken long time ago.
she's even cuter now. xD

2009-01-01T00:50:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

hope everything will be better.
and those that are better le, will be even better!

i saw marcus on teevee for manymany times! lols.
those who watched definately saw him.
cos his actions are super BIG!
hence very easy to take note of him. lols. xD
i watched ch5 because of him la!
but i watched ch8 more than ch5 just now.
ch8's one is more interesting. (:
i love dai yang tian! :D
he's damn cool and shuai laaaaaaaa. xD

but! marcus is also not bad de okay! lols.
he looked very matured on tv.
till now, i still think that he's weird. hahaha.
and laughing pill. (:

one more day to school!
jiu ming ahhhhhhhhh! :x

2008-12-31T18:48:00.002+08:00

New Year Eve! :D
went out with weiting again. (:
i think we combed the whole bugis street. :x
same again, we bought dress and etc. xD

anw, Marcus (yes, is xiaomarc) will be performing tonight.
please tune to channel 5 at 10pm,
to watch and SUPPORT HIM! :D
if not wrong, it's a countdown party.
he's dancing, under soka. (:
jiayous and all the best to marcus!

"Catch SYDC(SokaYouthDanceCrew) "Live" at the Countdown Party 2008 on channel 5! (:"
his previous personal nick.
and i heard there's strike force too. (:

okay, i blogged because of this. hahaha.

i dunno if this will be my last post for 2008.
perhaps it will be bah.
Good Bye 2008! :x
to me, this year is quite meaningful.
mainly because i became more matured than before. (:
no matter bad or good memories,
i will keep them forever in my heart. :D
hope i will learn and become a better person in 2009.

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2008-12-30T22:22:00.004+08:00

super duper tired from all the walking. :x
but i feel very happy an satisfied! :DDDDDDDDDDDD
went out with weiting today. (:

we did serious shopping,
went to a few places.
we both bought things.
the happy part is we never regreted buying all those! (:
okay, i think i am a bit crazy.
i bought a shirt/dress at 30++, when budget is not very high.
but really very prettaye! :D never regret.
my mum says that she's not allowing me to wear that shirt/dress on chu yi,
cos it's grey in colour. :x
nvm, i can wear it on other occasions. (:

i am lazy to elaborate,
go to weiting's blog for more info. xD

so conclusion: today is also a happy day!
Love weiting loads! ❤

just heard something from leon and joey.
bullshit bullshit bullshit!
and i dun feel that those are praises.
insults more like it. :x
whatever man.
i only know that no matter what,
only standard counts, isnt it?

going shopping with weiting 2morrow, again! :DDDD
i am going to spend the last day of 2008 with her. haha. (:

2008-12-29T23:04:00.003+08:00

today had sectional in the morning,
and full band in the afternoon.

Warning: Many rantings ahead!
hmmm, a miracle is needed for us(trumpet section) not to screw up.
look at their effffffffffffffffff attitudes also sian liao lor!
when i was typing this, i typed a whole big chunk of stuffs.
but i have decided to save it only.
cos it's quite sensitive, and no point saying it here.
but to that junior of mine,
Don't push over the limit.
and reflect on your attitude.

if i can choose, i will choose not to do all these fucking saikang for you all.
but sadly, i can't.

i enjoy the procedure of making music with the band.
but i DON'T enjoy the procedure of being with the section anymore.
it's no longer an enjoyment, it's disappointment.
make me grow more white hair only.
other than giving me all the negative and bullshit stuffs,
what you all have given me?

sorry, but i am being frank only.

Nvm, tomorrow will be a better day,
cos i am going out with weiting! :D

2008-12-28T23:26:00.002+08:00

out with liting and jiaqi today! :D
met up with liting first, in the morning.
i woke up at 9.30am, when i was supposed to meet liting at 9.30am.
i was overslept, so sorry. :x

okay, then went over to clark quey, central mall.
purpose is to help wenxiu get the mayday concert tickets,
cos she bought 2 albums, and she's still in china now.
super exaggerating i tell you!
we reached there at around 10.45am.
and the queue was suuuuuuuuuuuuuper long already!
i got a shock when i saw how long the queue was. :x
the queue started in the mall[indoor].
so long that we queued outside the mall! o.0
unlucky part is that we stood at the spot where blazing sunlight shined at us!
for 2-3 hours somemore.
i got very serious sun burnt, on my back. :x

okay, enough of ranting.
anw, we made a new friend! :D
okay, we dun even know her name.
but talked to her about many stuffs. lols.
before we went our seperate way,
she said "if we got affinity, we will meet again. (:"
yup, i hope we will meet her again.
anw, we got the tickets and got out of the efffffing queue at 2pm! :D
the queue was still super long at that time.
and jiaqi came to find us after her stuff.

then 3 of us went over to bugis. (:
walked around,
bought stuffs,
then went to ate at food court,
walked around again,
and homed. (:
we talked about a lot of stuffs today (as usual -.-)! xD
a topic was super disgusting, but super funny also. lols.
piercing~

okay, photos! (:

Liting, with the ticket she redeemed.

me, with the ticket i redeemed.

Liting, me and our friend! :D

My sun burnt back. :x
sorry for this disgusting photo,
but we took this photo as evidence,
for.... soon you will know. (:

Conclusion: Today was a fun day again!
Thanks to Liting and Jiaqi! :DDDD
Love you two loads! ❤
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i must sleep at 2am[maximum],
cos there's band tomorrow.

2008-12-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

went out with yanling today! :D
walked around, chit chat, played arcade... (:
the arcade game yanling introduced to me is very fun! xD
i was damn kan chiong when playing that game with her. haha.
after that, we wanted to meet aldous and go talk.
but! we only met him at 9pm!
plus jiayan and weixiang. (:
went to food court while they ate their dinner there.
anw, thanks weixiang for helping me to top up my card.
stop! i got pay him de okay! xD
then bus-ed home with aldous. HAHAHA.
okay, very weird. he is shizheng. lols.

he's damn quiet throughout the bus ride.
okay, the bus ride is damn short ._.
but it feels weird when he's quiet.
okay, maybe cos he's having stomachache.
hope his stomachache is gone by now.

going out with liting tomorrow! :D
SHOPPING. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! xD
liting, you also got influence me lor. >< haha.

not that i don't even know how i feel and what i am thinking.
it's because i don't dare to.
someone important to me.

2008-12-26T03:09:00.002+08:00

late.
but still, Merry Christmas! :D
my christmas was not well spent. :s

as motivated by liting,
i am also going to aim for SIX distinctions for O's.
ahhhhhh. don't laugh laaaaaaaa.
"Always strive for the Best!" HAHAHA.
be a bookworm/study freak after syf...
yeah, can!
someone please always remind me about this,
as i always get carried away by manymany stuffs. :x

i started to do my homework le! like finally.
confirm wont be able to clear anything on time.
but as much as possible bah. (:

Earthly Desires, damn it.

2008-12-23T23:28:00.002+08:00

i think i am behaving like chiamin now.
i slept at 4am yesterday,
and woke up at 1pm. O.o
but of course, i am not as imba as her! hahaha.

today was wasted by me again.
that yanqian ah, when i told him i woke up at 1pm,
he said "pigish".
then at 5pm, called him and chatted. :D
he ownself said call him if i want de ahhhhhh.

realised that actually his mum is quite cute.
but she's not cute when it comes to band stuff. LOL.
chatted for 2 hours plus, second time. (:
from this, you can infer he's really bored.
if not, he wont entertain me also.

okay, just a random post.

2008-12-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

okay, i am back. (:
sorry for the sudden lock of my blog.
i was damn angry/pekcek/disappointed by something/someone to the extend i went crazy, and went to lock my blog. HAHAHA. :x

nothing to hide, yes,
that something is an incident to do with psp and dj max.
that someone is shizheng.
i was damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn angry with him.
okay, both of us got fault. HAHAHA. :x
everything's fine now. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

went to do volunteering works at tpy with liting and jiaqi yesterday! :D
same as last year, asked ppl to pen down their new year resolutions/wishes on the spheres.
these spheres will be released into the singapore river during the marina bay countdown for year 2009. (:
i find it meaningful, and i wrote alot alot of wishes! xD
for family, friends, class, band, section etc.
from this event, i got 6 hours of CIP. hehhehheh. xD

after it ended, went to pasam malam in tpy central with liting and jiaqi.
bought different foods and shared. (:
three of us are so loving right?!
okay, goosebumps. hahaha.

then went over to orchard, as liting wanted to see christmas lightings.
when we reached, the sky was still very bright.
cos it was around 5 plus.
so walked around, found a spot and sat.
after the sky became darker,
bought food (again), took manymany photos.
the christmas ambience was really there! :D
the lightings were beautiful.
liting and jiaqi were damndamndamn HIGH! lols.
ya la, without fail, everytime when we go out, we will do crazy stuffs.
this time round was clapping along with the drum ensemble.
ppl were looking at us with those stares, maybe thinking that we are mentally unstable. O.o
i didn't go super high, but my two besties did. lols.
anw, we all bought a real cute hair clip, like a small christmas hat. awwwwwwwww. xD

trained back to amk,
bought tang yuan together. (:
liting went home, me and jiaqi went to a corner and ate together.
then we walked home together. (:

i had a super long day yesterday, isn't it?
definately yesterday was wonderful, thanks to the 2 ladies. :DDDDDDDD
love you two loads! ♥

at first i wanted to stay at home for the whole of today.
but went out with band peeps in the end.
at first dunno how to face shizheng.
(rah, at that time i was still angry with him okay!)
but things went out fine.
he still dared to say that he wants to settle score with me la!
went to play, talk like usual, but different place.
walked home with shizheng as usual (super usual),
after we went different paths, i suddenly felt like going back to amk central to find my mummy.
so i headed back.
then homed with my mummy. (:

zzz, long post again! :x
i hate it man, i guess it's already a habit.
a super bad one.
blog already very jialat le, still blog until so long. :x

and it's time to post all those rotting-soon photos.
yeah yeah yeah, 'soon'. lols.
okay, i am very lazy to upload them.
next time perhaps. (:

2008-12-20T13:46:00.002+08:00

i am living in a world full of despairs.
am i being born to be insulted by you?

i can't take insults anymore.
i dun feel that i deserves all these shit.

it's not about the game, whether i can score A or not.
did you even respect me as a human?
all you do is insult me.
i dun think you even treat me as your friend.
if that's your way,
i cannot accept your way of being my friend.

i hope i can be disconnected from this world.

2008-12-18T22:44:00.004+08:00

here comes my daily routine - blogging.

the banner for band is up le,
can be seen from parade square! :D
done by shizheng, joel, derek, jiayan, noraini and me.
the banner looks small when is compared to the rest. lols.

today's brass quintet was not as fun as yesterday's one. :x
guess it's out of balance bah, since many joined in.
but i still enjoyed! (:
love brass quintet ♥

went to opposite as usual with band peeps,
then to a void deck and played truth or dare.
then went to playground and talk.
as many were bored, especially my junior xD,
we played catching! :D
we are not deprived of childhood la!
it was fun. (:

i am getting bored with my classic posts,
those about my daily life.
maybe i should start something new from 2morrow onwards.
my blog is so sian, why you are still reading it?
you must be damn bored i guess. haha. xD

okay, let me show you a photo which xueqi posted it on her blog.
taken on band picnic.
her caption for this is "S.H.E".

i was laughing like mad woman in front of my laptop when i saw it.
i didnt know that she took this! lols.
anw, it's me, zixin and geraldine. (:

time to go make x'mas card for 2morrow's exchange le.
byeeeeeeeee. (:

2008-12-17T22:30:00.004+08:00

Post 260! :D
today was a blast! (:

went to band room at 11 plus.
after practicing for a while, i was damn hungry. :x
cos i didnt eat breakfast. haha.
went over to opposite with band peeps and had lunch.

the fun fun part was the part after lunch! :D
we played as a brass quintet! :DDDDDDDDDDD
my veryvery first attempt. haha.
trumpets - me and joel
horn - shizheng
trombone - jiayan
tuba - shaojie
2 words to describe - SUPER FUN! :D
tried quite a few like "william tell overture", "carmen fantasy", "howl's moving castle" and "mononoke". (:

then suddenly many came in,
and we sat in a circle,
and sightread manymanymany pieces!
around 12 i am not wrong.
cool man! xD

my lips were damndamndamn tired! :x
the same feeling i had in band camp.
nvm, it's okay. a chance for me to train endurance.
i didnt regret at all, cos it was DAMN FUN la! xDDDDDDDDDD

trying "seventh night in july", "inn of sixth happiness" etc 2morrow.
good luck to me man!
if i am not wrong, my sightreading improved le! :D
happy happy happy! :D

okay enough of my crazy-ness.
then went opposite and playground with band peeps.
yanling came also! (:
then homed.

what an interesting day! :D

2008-12-16T22:06:00.003+08:00

out with weiting, liting, jiaqi and yixuan today! :D

jiaqi came to my house first,
then followed by the rest.
played with jiaqi's 9 in 1 hair multi styler. (:
then cabbed to j8 cos we were rushing for time.
we were rushing like crazy women after we got out of the cab.
while running, i fell down!
the scratches on my knee resembles scratchs by a cat. LOLS!
thanks yixuan, for helping me to pick up my phone for me!
i dun even know i dropped my phone when i fell down. tsk tsk tsk. :x
we watched sneak preview of twilight. :D
luckily we were able to catch on time. lols.
in my opinion it's not bad la,
cos i never read the book before.
so nothing to expect.

weiting and yixuan went home,
so me and jiaqi accompanied liting to go library return her super overdued books. xD
then took 88, liting went home.
and lastly our dinner at sumo house. (:
and went home together, since we live so near to each other. :D
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after seeing so much of these,
i guess the best is not to be involved in any BGR.
it's so damn complicated.
friendship is the best! :D

i know, i shouldn't comment on such stuffs,
cos it's none of my business.
but seriously, that guy is a bastard.
i thought that he's a god damn faithful guy.
i am damn bloody so wrong la!

it really sounds like some drama la.
my poor little girl. :x

2008-12-15T22:52:00.004+08:00

Band Christmas Party was very FUN! :D

none of my sec2 juniors came.
well, can anyone tell me which senior/sl will be happy about it?
again and again, lousy attendance.
sec1 - 3 [full]
sec2 - BIG FAT ZERO.
sec3 - 1
lols, more and more exaggerating.
how exaggerating can it get?

joel and zixin reached my house at 8 plus.
we slacked like there's no picnic in the afternoon. xD
then i went to steam all those dumplings.
after that went to meet brandon and yanling. (:

then rushed here and there,
and finally caught up with band peeps. (:
took bus 403 to that park.
then set up stuffs after we reached.
ate manymany stuffs, prepared by many and different sections.
i am the pig man.
when i thought that i ate a little, i was feeling damn full le.

then gathered at 3 for games!
i feel that all games was fun,
except the part when we need to step into muddy field.
but a lot of ppl were enjoying the so called "mud spa for foot".
maybe it was fun, but i dun dare to try. :x
anw, i was in group 5! :D
consisting andy, thomas, reiko, yuqing, demi and yunfan.
but yuqing lefted earlier. :x
anw, the most funny/memorable was the part when we were fighting for 3rd placing with waiyen's group.
we need to protect yunfan, preventing her to get wet. (rule of that game)
but in the end, she was the most wet person in our group. LOLS!
and i really thought that we lost le.
but in the end we won! xD

after the games ended, time for home sweet home!
many went home, but many and me waited for the rest.
lefted the park at 7.30.
took 88 to amk hub.
talked a lot with band peeps during bus ride. fun fun! :D
realised that derek and devin are hainanese also!
i got a 'great' time trying to learn hainanese from them. lols.
thn accompanied bmm to bring his psp to 'hospital'.
his kelian psp, poor thing.
then homed. (:

i took quite a lot of photos,
but i am lazy to transfer and post it now. :x

anw, talking to winston on msn now.
makes me think a lot.
truthfully, i was a very jialat junior in the past.
i was so scared of every shit in those scores.
maybe i should stand in their shoes bah,
and understand what they are going through, thinking of.
i feel regreted that i didn't cherish those times well enough,
when i still got my seniors just besides me.

i wish that i can rewind time.
i wont do all that, for this time round.

2008-12-14T22:28:00.002+08:00

seems like i have been going out every single day,
from morning till night.
hmm, to me, of course it's a good thing.
at least i dun need to rot at home. :D
even if dun let me go out, i also wont do homework or revision de. xD
you know me very well de la. (:

entrance exam was... hahahahahaha.
only can cross my fingers, and hope that i will pass.
even if i fail, i also cannot whin or cry.
cos i really never put in effort.
but seriously, i know and learn a lot more than before.
before this, i dun even know a single thing about this buddhism. :x
so sad right?
but at least now i know it le. :D

then went to meet ppl, and went to nyjc band concert.
was okay bah. (:
then went to eat with band peeps.
did crazy stuffs. lols.
but it's like very normal to me leh.
cos i always do that with mt gang. haha.
some went home, then went to talk with the rest.
lefted early, cos my family was waiting for me le.
today's a special occasion! :D

HAPPY 43th BIRTHDAY MUMMY! :D
stay happy, though me, mei and di always make you angry.
thanks for all you have given to us. (:

2morrow's band christmas picnic! :D
but the bad thing is i dun think trumpet section will have good attendance. :x
pray that yanqian's and seesuan's parents will let them go.

anw, my lips recovered le! :D
chiong chiong chiong!

2008-12-13T17:13:00.004+08:00

this is crazy manzxzxzxz!
i most probably will fail tomorrow's entrance exam lor.
shit shit shit!
i confirm need to mug like crazy tonight.
i hate burning midnight oil. :x

overdued replies. lols.
breaker: i lazy to guess.
secret: omg. take care of your lips! during band camp, my lips were swollen like 2 hotdogs like that. lols! anw, yup, will try to relax. haiz. hope that i can.
deborah: welcome! :D
regina: linked! :D
danhui: thanks a lot! lols. you are very funny, manymany extra tags. lols. it's okay de la! xD anw, you are not late at all. and okay, i will find and talk to you de, thanks a lot! :D
liting: lols. okay! will de, xD. but i think ahem is still better la. ^^
y yen: lols. i did find you quite a lot of times during band camp! xD thanks for being my listener all these while. i also can lend you my ears de! xD during this 2 weeks, let's find one day and chiong arban? i am very free le! heehee. xD

i don't know how to describe the feeling i have for you.
is that crush/puppy love?

2008-12-12T20:31:00.002+08:00

went to mr tan's grandma wake today,
with band peeps. (:
we somehow flooded the top of double decker bus 25.
chatted with mr tan, while some went off first.
after that went to amk hub for lunch with the rest.
next stop was devin's house.
cab-ed there with waiyen, shizheng, joel and thomas.
i know i very extra la, cos i am not in games committee.
his house was flooded with quite a lot of ppl.
then blahblahblah, lazy to elaborate.

some went to j8 for dinner after that.
mama got cook dinner,
so went home with shizheng.

anw, i am damn angry with yanqian.
i called and talked to him when i was at devin's house,
cos i was damn sian for a small period of time.
i was damn moody liao, and he made it worst. :x
walao, personal attack leh!

okay, i need to chill down.

2008-12-11T22:07:00.005+08:00

for my case, my very last secondary school band camp is a boo.
on second day of band camp, my lips already became swollen le.
but i have no other choice, but continued to play.
i felt the pain on my lips whenever i played something.
even when i played low C.

i was damn pekcek.
i believe i can sightread some of the pieces de lor.
but my lips forbided me to.
then i was being said that i got no confidence or i am too kan jiong.
it's not la!
i MUST MUST MUST prove them wrong.
my dear lips, please recover soon!

but, a great news to share! :D
after washing my trumpet today,
that dumb first valve is okay le!
now i can play my trumpet at ease,
without worrying and thinking that it will stuck any moment when i play. (:

filming for marching was okay bah. (:

anw, poor yanqian's lips are swollen too. :x
but he's lucky that he went home on second day of band camp.
as compared to brandon's last year situation,
i think i am better off le.
at least i got someone who chiong-ed together with me.
this is not the first time, but it was the most hiong one.

but this yanqian hor!
okay, let me tell you a short conver.
it took place during static drills.

derek: eh germaine, your eyes looked like barbie doll's eyes leh.
me: really meh?! O.o
yanqian: where got?!?! not barbie doll la, more like barbie[sp](pig/pork in malay)!!
*derek and yanqian laughing away*

besides my lips,
my siaosiao trumpet girls also nearly drove me crazy.
their super lots of dirty jokes/nonsenses and 'sexyback'. O.o
but i have to admit that some are quite funny.

no section photo, cos of them la! argh.
nvm, i shall post a funny one. (:
taken during supper.

yanqian, with section dog on his leg!
ya la, from outside, seems like he was taking care of the dog.
but you noe what, he threw the dog around after that! :x
which made most of us pekcek, especially zixin. lols.

few words to describe everyone in the section, in this band camp.
yanqian: he kept saying that i act cute la! O.o he then act cute lor!
seesuan: super high, active. was damn pervert throughout the camp!
yangyue: slept at times when she should not. tsk. and she's damn high with geraldine and zixin, especially with seesuan. kept screaming.
joel: quite obedient throughout the camp, except the bullying part.
geraldine: dunno what to say, cos she's the same during camp and at home.
zixin: was kena bullied by yy, ss and joel. poor zixin!

this section is driving me crazy.
i was damn pekcek with them, but i just love them.
if only i never love them so much,
it will be easier.

our choice piece is With Heart and Voice.
hope i will like it more and more.
germaine, chiong ah! (:

yes, most ppl are chionging revision now.
i need to buck up, cos i haven't even did any. :x

2008-12-08T23:53:00.002+08:00

off to band camp in few hours time!
in order to survive through,
let's all be positive!
[okay, maybe it's for me only. ha.]

germaine jiayous!
trumpet section jiayous!
amkss band jiayous!

2008-12-07T23:09:00.002+08:00

like what liting said,
we chatted through yesterday night,
about lower sec's life. (:

although the feeling faded away already,
but i still can remember events that happened in 1/5 and 2/5. (:
home econ, iap, d&t, class chalets, the fight between mt and fs, etc..
till today, i am still glad that i once was in this class.
i am even more glad that i found my real & true friends in this class.
i wont hope to go back to past, be in that class like before.
cos it's the best for all these to remain as memories.
if we are still in that class, i guess there will be even more arguments/conflicts.
and everyone will be so pekcek with one another.
pointless, isn't it?
thinking of these fond memories can already make me veryvery happy. :D

and till today, i never regreted liking him. (:
that's for sure.
i wont regret for the rest of my life.
cos this crush/infatuation taught me a lot..

and i know no matter what arguments/conflicts mt gang had,
this clique of friends will always be the closest friends i had. (:
other than the 6 of you, there's not much ppl i can rely on le.

unlike twofive,
for threefour and the year of 2008,
i cant recall any happiness i had.
all i can recall is conflicts in class, all unhappiness.
but for band, many happiness after hardwork. (:

haiz, i dun want school to reopen. :x

2008-12-06T23:44:00.002+08:00

it sucks to know, and hear ppl saying that my section sucks.
i really dun like to hear all these.
i know it myself,
i dun need you all to repeat those lines.

i hate the fact that my world and mood revolves around band.
when section get scolded, i feel sad/disappointed/moody etc.
when section get compliments/praised, i feel happy.
it's a cycle, one comes after another.
insult followed by compliment, then followed by insult...
it's natural for everyone to go through, cos we are humans.
but for me, it changes everyday, any moment.
it's changing so fast, to the extend i feel that i am emotionally unstable.

i am getting tired of that cycle.
i think i should just go to a mountain and do mediation.
and stay there forever,
stay away from all shit/fuck/nonsense.

2008-12-05T22:13:00.003+08:00

today was a boo day.

i dunno why i just cant play to my best during full bands.
i am trying very hard to, but i just cant.
but i can, during tutoring... -.-

in the end, we are not going to play jacob's le. :x
damn sad la, our hardwork and efforts leh!
goodbye, jacob's.

and talked to *******,
realised my mistakes and carelessness.
i gonna learn, and become a better SL and trainer. (:
i hope he changes too.

then usual, went to opp and blahblahblah.

just feel damn moody and disappointed and pekcek etc.
i want to be happy and carefree laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

2008-12-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

haiz, i seriously miss you two as bunk-mates. :x
this coming one is my last band camp.
but it's also the first band camp that i wont be attending with chiamin.
wiayen also not in the same bunk as me.
meaning i am the only sec3 in my bunk..
there wont be chiamin and waiyen to build 'king size bed' with me le. :x
i also cant enjoy accompanying chiamin to the toilet early in the morning to bath.
i didn't know that that would be the last time.
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today's sectional and tutoring were okay bah. (:
seems like they like to play thunderer,
though they still haven't memorise everything.
and i think our jacob's got improve a bit.
the whole section, including me, was expecting crap when we are about to play jacob's for the first time today.
but! in the end, we sounded not bad. (:
but of course, we still got long way to go...

new cupboard-mates - double bass (:
and new section pet/dog :D
it's a secret to why we got a section dog. so shhhhhhhhhh xD

full band in the morning 2morrow. (:
byeeeeeeeeee!

2008-12-03T20:53:00.002+08:00

Post 248! :D
2 x 4 = 8

today was a unusual day,
but fun and crazy one. (:

after sectional which was -.-,
went out with liting and weiting. (:
at first wanted to go bugis de,
but not enough time le.
stayed at hub, and liting and me did something crazy.
within 15 min, we decided to go pierce our ears. xD
very chong dong la.. but i never regret. (:

anw weiting, thanks for the present! :D
i love it lots! (:

then weiting lefted, and sat at a place to chat with liting. (:
then vball girls came to find liting.
and many many more, lazy to say.
but ended up at playground with liting, renee and baohui.
i noe it's weird. lols.

i am getting more and more pissed after watching little nyonya.
walao, that fucking charlie zhang is a bastard man!
and that mother and daughter are %$%&^*)&(^%$&!
and janpanese occupation caused that family to be separated laaaaaaaa!
idiot!!!
okay, i cannot be so jidong. :x
but i really feel damn angry and sad!

over obssessed le. :x

2008-12-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

i became a crazy fan of anime for one day,
just for today only. haha.
my sister introduced de, Lovely Complex.
interesting story plot. :D

didnt go back for individuals today.
sorry waiyen. :x
went to nearby police office to change the address in my ic.
then to posb bank to create my own bank acc.
so i got atm card le. yay! :D
when mummy, sis and me lefted the bank, already around 5pm le.
mummy went home after that,
so accompanied sister to ntuc, as she wants to get something.
then walked home with her. (:

i love little nyonya to bits la! :D
a lot ppl find it very draggy, and feel that they way they talk is damn bloody slow.
but just dunno why, i like this show very much!
i hope that i am born in that nyonya period.
but of course i dun want to go through world war 2 la. :x
and i agree with liting, those kuays in the show seems to be very delicious! (:
although their culture is very strict, but i am still interested in it..

okay. that's all for today's update. (:

seriously, i dun have sense of belonging to it.
i dunno why, but i still can the emptiness and loneliness.
i think too much?
maybe.
and he seems to be more happy with them..

2008-12-01T23:43:00.002+08:00

post 246! :D
2, 4 and 6 are multiples of 2. lols.

today supposingly was a super happy day for me,
due to many factors and events.
but ONE msg changed everything.
it neutralised the happiness. :x

but seriously,
i didn't know that it will affect you so much.
i really dunno. :x
i thought it's just a picture.
i didn't know that you are sensitive in this topic.
and thoughts of using it to mock didn't even pass through my mind.
and they are your friends too.
but why?

i earned myself one more enemies.
you can scold me bitch and scold me till there's no tomorrow.
but i cannot stand you using personal attack.
"no wonder she hates you..."
eh. you are being unreasonable already.

okay. enough of unhappiness.
let's talk about happy stuffs. (:

i love a part in overture1 that i played with yanqian today! :D
i feel that it's damn nice la.
no clashes at all. xD
and we received applause, but i dunno why. lols.

then went opp with band peeps.
after that went to talk with shizheng and yanling. (:
yanling, cheer up!
dun think too much. (:

time to reply tags.
bryant: leon got owned? lols. why?
...: LOLS. clara oh. -.- lols. you kena caught by me la. xD very obvious is you, cos not many ppl know and can recognise that shizheng played this piece before. lols.
anonymous: brandon lim -.- lols. of course my blog post is very long la, you dunno i very naggy de meh? xD
breaker: since you dun want to say, then i also dun want to guess le. meaningless. if i got the correct answer, you also wont admit right?
weiting: haha. :x
shuaige: wad can i say?

practising arban with waiyen 2morrow! :D
chiong ah!

and before that, going to change the address on my ic.
then to posb bank to _______________________.
fill in yourself. (:

anw, ohjunjie came back from beijing le! (:
okay. goodbye. :D

yourlittleactionsmademyday.
that's enough le. i am contented with it. :D

2008-11-30T13:50:00.002+08:00

there's this person whom i admire a lot.
due to some reasons,
this person dun have a piano teacher,
after taking grade8 piano exam.
although he dun have any teacher to guide him along,
but with his determination and passion for music and piano,
he's still striving and continues to practice even harder.
i feel that it's such a waste la,
he's talented and hardworking.
if i got magic power, i will give him a piano teacher to teach him whenever he wants.
wont it be wonderful? (:

i feel very heartache for him.
but i know, no matter what,
he will not stop learning and practising piano de. (:
jiayous to him! :D

2008-11-30T01:32:00.003+08:00

yes, very funny.
yes, very mysterious.
but hor, why so many ppl tagged as anonymous? :x
i am like an idiot,
replying tags to ppl who i dun even know who they are.
but, i will still continue to reply the tags..
i am that scary ah?
to the extend you all use anonymous/fake names :x

yixuan: got chance will show you de. xD
shuaige: lols. bhb! xD guys tie 2 pony tails is a new trend ah? lols. even ppl thought you are a guy. you are a fake shuaige lor! xD
secret: lols! yup, library stuffs is very fun. lols. i noe andy knows, but i didnt know brandon know it also, at that time! :x omg. damn paiseh. lols.
leon: shuaige is a girl. LOLS!
someone else: you are?
breaker: why dun need? dun tell me your real name is breaker. -.- just say la.
...: not he influence me de la. it's because i think this piece is very nice, that's why. i got listen to band music, so why so shocked that i listen to piano music? and can be my friends influence me to listen de right? my life dun revolve around shizheng de. -.- and you are?

tagging as anonymous is so fun ah?
maybe i should go try try also. xD

2008-11-28T22:34:00.005+08:00

today was a great day! :D
except for one incident.

i dunno if i should regret or not,
for 'torturing' my lips yesterday.
and obviously, i didnt play well in the beginning, during warm-ups.
but my lips became more flexible after that. (:
played Overture1, followed by Jacob's, then Overture2.
after band prac, my lips a bit numb le! :x
but it was worthwhile!
cos mr de souza complimented trumpet section! :DDDDDDDDDDDD

but after lunch, i went back to bandroom to prac again. :x
just cannot control myself when i see a trumpet. haha.
played Bach Chorales with some peeps.
it was fun! and we sounded not bad lehhhhhhhhh! xD
then i took out arban, and shizheng also wants to play trumpet.
took out a trumpet for him,
and we started playing duets from arban. LOLS!
although he got suan me, but he very nice le.
he took all the difficult parts. xD
played until my lips cannot take it anymore,
then went to storeroom and chatted with waiyen.
she made my day also! :D
she kept laughing at me, saying that i am funny? lols.

then went opppsite,
after that went to void deck to chat with shizheng.
then homed. (:

i am a chatterbox la!
i seems like i talked and chatted for the whole day. :x

really wonder why present trumpet section is so childish when compared to past trumpet section?

2008-11-27T22:18:00.002+08:00

tutoring in the morning.
we sounded like..... crap.
we did better on previous tutoring.

then had individuals in the afternoon.
i went crazy, and played thunderer while marching. xD
zi high-ing...
then played arban exercises with waiyen.
it was fun! :D
can also train my sightreading also!
after that, digged out some old scores i played with the seniors in the past.
all the melodies are super nice and fun to play laaaaa!
but in the past, i played third for all those pieces. :x
and sad to say, i dun think i will get to play with them those pieces again.
if only i didnt pon band in the past, due to some reasons. :x
anw, iris was there too! :D
we chatted for quite awhile, about band and newyork.

i miss newyork again.
but i miss the seniors and the times with them even more.
we can no longer experience that type of feeling anymore.
those times when everyone worked hard together.
those time when improvements can be seen frequently.
those times when everyone is super disciplined and minimum amount of [A]ttitude [P]roblem.
those times when we really can say "one band, one family".
not trying to be emo -.-
but really can feel that warmth in the band, in the past.
and obviously, not now.

okay, it's my personal thoughts, so no comments.
thank you (:

and seems like someone was in bad mood today. :x
hmmm, cheer up.

2008-11-26T22:12:00.003+08:00

today was okay bah. (:
helped librarians to do some stuffs.
i find it interesting, okay, i am siao de.
lunch with sec1s.
then went to aunt house for a hair cut.
she helped me rebond my fringe also,
cos still got little ingredients. lols.

anw, i forgot to mention that i had a bet with shizheng yesterday.
HAHAHA, shizheng confirm lose le! xD
my bubble tea please! :D

time to reply tags le..
leon: like muslim meh?! lols. yupyup, chemistry~~ xD
y yen: really? but nvm la, cos it's nice also! xp
amanda: lols. i also got visit your blog de! (:
passerby: of course can, but sad to say, i also dunno the name of the song. i koped from some blog templates de. tell me who are you, then i will send you! xD
wanting: yup, long time no see! 1 more month! lols.
marcus: you now seldom online cos you enjoying life le right?! lols. i also.. read 2 chapters only :x haiz. lols.
secret: yup, it's like once upon a time le! xD lols. i remember i was damn crazy about him, but of course, not now le. haha. so you that time know i like him le!! lols. i thought you dunno..
joel: not emo, is ANGRY! lols. thanks for supporting! (: you said de hor, you will support me de. xD
breaker: you are damn noisy! firstly, you dun want to say out your name, nvm. then you keep giving comments! wad crazy moods?! is moodswing laaaaaa! just say who are you leh..

anw, a lot ppl are away last week and this week.
wenxiu went back to china long time ago..
weiting went to korea.
liting, jiaqi, faris and andy went to OBS.
junjie went to beijing.
chonghui went to new zealand.
seesuan today just went to malaysia.
haiz.. :x

but something to be happy and glad.
bryant came back from hongkong le!
leon also came back from batam le. (:
and more and more ppl will come back soon.

and it's a small world after all!
just realised and got to know that constance and chua qian ru are primary school friends! lols.
constance will send me qianru's photos after she repair her scanner! xD
the 'guy' who tied 2 pony tails during her primary school days~
excited to see. haha. xD

2morrow for tutoring. Wheeeeeeeeeeee! :D
okay. long post again. lols.
byebyeeeeee everyone. (:

2008-11-25T22:45:00.013+08:00

Today is a slightly happier day! :D
and i am okay le.
recovered from my unstable mental le.

Saturday
saturday was showcase, plus unorganised section outing.
and i chatted a lot with Chiamin! :D
chatted with jiaqi also. :D
that's the only thing that made happy for the day, in the morning only.
then went to meet juniors, then yanling came.
after that went to somewhere near school to meet shizheng and talk talk. (:
he came with his bike ._.
i guess i was too emotional on that day le.

Sunday
went to gym with jiaqi, junjie, pamelyn and yinkiat in the morning.
i didnt do a lot, but at least i got exercise leh! xD
it has been so long since i did proper exercise. :x
then accompanied jiaqi to a place to repair her PC.
while waiting, went to kovan to walk walk, then her sis came.
then went to fetch her PC, and homed.
anw, the repair com shop's owners are TEE KO PEH! :x
eeeeeeeeeeeeeyerrrrrrrrrrr!
they are damn disgusting!

Monday
went out with yixuan! :D
to kovan, heartland mall.
ya, i am damn lame. lols.
but just feel like going, cos never go before.
i spent a lot of $$. :x
yixuan, thanks for accompanying me! :DDDD
or i would be damn bored.

Today
had sectional, and both boys didnt come. :x
tsk.
went through overture1, and half of overture2.
chatted with batch mates on drama shows. lols.
yeeyong knows a lot about drama!
dramas on chinese, taiwan, hongkong, korea... lols.
it was fun, when chatting with them (:
then me, waiyen and shizheng went to hub, cos he wants to buy dvd.
then waiyen went home, and we went to library to return score.
thanks for accompanying me ah, bmm!
you also should thank me lor... xD

and! today i then realised that shizheng is also a hainanese!
so coincidental laaaaaa!
and i am a hainanese, who dunno how to speak hainan. :x
damn pathetic right?!
at least shizheng knows how to listen, and speak a bit.
i dun even understand a single word of hainan! serious. :x
let me tell you a super stupid incident.

manymany months ago, i was still staying at my grandma's house.
one day, i was on phone with chonghui, and my grandma was scolding me.
chatting with chonghui, he suddenly said "eh. you know wad your grandma saying or not?"
"nope, i dunno."
"your grandma is scolding you laaaaaaaaa! stupid!"
cos he knows how to listen and speak hainan lor! but a bit only. xD
then he explained to me wad my grandma saying. lols.
everytime when my grandma talks to me, i need to guess what she's talking de.
damn sad. haiz. :x
nvm, i want to learn hainan from my papa le! (:

Photos from saturday's showcase! :D

sec1 and 2 band.

assistance student conductor, weilin! :D

and of course, trumpet section! :D

from this angle, you can tell who are ones who never take trumpet properly.
tsk tsk tsk.

funny shu'e! xD
since when you transfer from flute to percussion section ah? lols.
can tell she's very serious.

and andy joined in! LOLS. xD

and lastly, bmm shizheng! :D

he's very serious when conducting.

that's all bah.
what a long post laaaaa.
whatever!
byebye everyone. (:

2008-11-24T21:30:00.003+08:00

IF YOU THINK THAT TRUMPET SECTION CANNOT MAKE IT,
AND YOU CHOOSE TO DEMORALISE AND MOCK AT US,
THEN WHOLE TRUMPET SECTION QUIT BAND CAN?
SINCE WE CANNOT MAKE IT WAD!
SO WAD'S THE USE FOR US TO STAY IN BAND?
-moment of anger only-

and wad i cannot stand is you choose to demoralise trumpet section in front of yanqian, before his performance!
and you knew that yanqian was there!
please laaaaaa!
before performance leh.
wad if a conductor demoralise his students before competition/performance?!
the whole band can go bang wall already lor!

in my opinion, at least we are improving bit by bit le.
then can you give us some time to improve?
you cant expect us over a night become super good players right?!
and you are a not a brass player, how you know how we are doing now?
and not all students can improve through suanning okay!

i feel like spamming vulgarities liao.

before sec4s graduated, many told "dun need to be scare de! there will be many ppl helping you one."
oh please! MANY. sure not?
a few help.
but MANY just suan us non stop.

2008-11-24T00:59:00.002+08:00

not in the right state of mind.
i am like being buried by all worries and pressures.
i guess i need time to correct myself to right mind set.
i need to mature up.
i need to be more courageous.
i need to control.
i need to learn how to defend myself.
i need to forget.
i need to wear masks.

and yayaya, you will say i am very weak/lousy.
then you will say "can you fucking stop feeling that you got the most problems and worries in the world? fucking do something about it and stop fucking complain about it! and stop gaining sympathy! cos no one gives a damn about it!"
dun tell you all cant tell who i am talking about.
i coded it from someone.
isnt it obvious who the person is?

okay, if i continue, i will spill out everything.
i wont blog for the time being,
but i will come back after i am okay.

2008-11-21T23:30:00.002+08:00

what a lousy day. boooooooo.

drills was okay bah.
andy said that i march until very weird. :x
i miss those days! those days when i still need to learn drills like shit.

full band was.....
super angry, pekcek and blahblah.
i haven't even conduct sectionals on that 2 overtures leh!
obviously we wont be able to play lor.
and ya la, trumpet section's sightreading is very lousy also, happy?
i cannot stand the way kds smirked at us just now.
ta ma de! i swear i will drill myself and my section to play well!
i wont give you a single chance to smirk.

and walao, my section can play front part of jacob's le.
but! today we never touch on that piece!!
it's like the sutffs you revised are not tested laaaaaaa!

after band prac, went opp.
then to playground with shizheng, andy, joel and benedict.
then homed.

luckily my shift on NY booth is changed,
or i think i can just go bang wall,
dun even need to walk/go to the booth.
cos i would rather go die.
i know i am mean.
but really, you expect me to work with ...?
very sad, i cant even work with my own classmates.
this is not i want, this is wad you want.

okay. end of updates.
bye! (:

charming smile.

2008-11-21T10:42:00.002+08:00

if you are moody,
by talking to junjie can improve your mood! xD

was 'sufferring' with him last night.
cos both of us wanted to sleep, but cant.
cos he was reformatting and downloading stuffs.
i was packing songs in iTunes.
i fell asleep a few times la!
and i dunno how to use iTunes.
and it's making me crazy. :x

when i was about to fall sleep for the first time,
i was saying no link things to junjie.
but he didnt realised!
at first i talked about andy, then i linked to shizheng,
then i linked to limelight concert?! :x
i wasnt using my brain to talk luh.
because i was mumbling, he couldnt hear it.
he act that he know by saying "oh i see"!
freaking lame and fuuny!

then this made me and him remember that one year ago.
he was about to fell alseep at that time.
then he suddenly told me something about dota?!
i was like "huh? wad you talking about?"
LOLS!

okay. got to go.
more updates tonight!

2008-11-20T21:30:00.002+08:00

i am updating every single day. -.-
whatever! xD
happy jiu hao! (:

today's tutoring was a good one! :D
mr lun taught me how to conduct warm-ups when i am playing with them also.
then went through front part of jacob's.
with him guiding us, we played not bad as a section! (:
even he also says trumpet section can make it de lor.
so dun you dare to say trumpets cant make it hor!
but ya la, whole section needs to be more disciplined,
to move to greater heights.

anw, today i broke my own record again!
i managed to play top C, with tone. (:
feel damn shiok.
but because i anyhow pia,
my lips now a bit pain le..

went back to pri sch band today, with joel.
i spent my whole day with him ehh. xD
form of section bonding. lols.

haiz, there's drills 2morrow!
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! i hate it! :x
confirm will sweat profusely, and after that got band prac. :x
we will be damn smelly.

damn moody now.
perhaps i should go sleep.
so i will stop thinking, and i will become happy.

i hatehatehate it.
it sucks.

2008-11-20T02:20:00.003+08:00

i suddenly feel like blogging about newyork trip ._.
nvm then, i will fulfil my own wish then. xD
super long post ahead..

just looked through all the newyork photos that ruishan burnt for me in a disc.
i miss newyork.

looking through, i remember that i liked my own SL during ny trip. :x
i liked him, but i made things difficult for him at that time.
throwing tantrums like a 3 year old kid, making clara and ruishan so pekcek.
i argued with brandon for manymany time, more than 7 for the whole trip.
argued like nobody's business, like there's no tomorrow.
so you can imagine how bad it was at that time.

i remember how clara took care of me, using her man-ly methods.
she scolded me for quite a few times, cos i really did something wrong.
i didnt take good care of myself.
when i was coughing and sneezing like mad, i was munching potato chips away, non stop. :x
so she sort of raised her voice, and told me to stop eating.
then told me to sleep, which i didnt want to!!
then she said "if you never sleep by ___, you 2morrow play a high G for me."
HA, that time i can reach a bit le, so i said "HAHAHA, i can reach le! xD"
obviously, she raised the note to top C, which i am very scared of, at that time.
i immediately went to sleep. :x
but seriously, luckily she stopped me at that time.
cos if i continued, i surely fall sick until very jialat. :x
she did take good care of me, in the physical part! lols.

i remember i cried in front of ruishan a lot of times during ny trip.
at that time, i was super worried.
cos i am very lousy in playing, and i was about to take over SL post le.
who wont be scare if in that situation?! :x
i talked to her about section and myself quite a few times.
dunno whether she got find me a nuisance or not. :x
but i made her cry 1 or 2 times, while talking about section's problems.
though after the cryings, i was still very worried at that time.
but! she did lighten my super heavy burden. (:
i remember her scolding me and brandon, when i argued with him.
i am the one who started the fight. :x
i am damn bo liao laaaaa. tsk tsk tsk.
but seriously, she did take good care of me, especially in the emotional part! :D
and without this trip, i guess i would never have a chance to reallly talk to her.

i remember me crushing brandon during the trip, lols. xD
but in the past le! but nonono le.
i picked a fight with him because i want to attract his attention. -.-"
i didnt know why i behaved that way, but now know le.
and another reason is because he dun want to eat, walk, etc with section.
and at that time, only got 4 ppl in trumpet section lehh.
this is exactly the same case as yanqian's one. -.-
i remember i was practically gaga-ing over him laaaaa. omg. :x
when he treated me nice and do things with section, i was super happy for the whole entire day.
when he treated me not nice and never do things with section, i was be damn moody.
so my life was revolving around him at that time. -.-
and i got drunk after i drank beer and red wine with him on plane, made myself feel damn terrible.
i gulpped down the whole can of beer, cos i dunno how to drink,
and thinking that faster drink finish is the best, which is wrong. :x
and duh, i got drunked.
i was such a siao ding dong that time.
but he's being 'bullied' by me at that time. :x
i threw tantrums at him damn often.

really want to say a BIG thank you to the 3 of you.
you all made me grown up and martured after ny trip.
if you all happen to come here..

Thanks Clara, for taking good care of me, the physical part.
Thanks Ruishan, for taking care of me, the emotional part.
Thanks Brandon, for tolerating me and my nonsenses, i mean the quarrelings, not the with section part. xD

i love the 3 of you! :D

i know i never regreted going to newyork :D

2008-11-20T01:19:00.003+08:00

SAF band concert with principal players from marine band was super good!
thumbs up! :D
i love cavetown!
so coincidental, yesterday i heard cavetown from shizheng's phone.
and i was like "wahh! brasses super hiong la!"
cos he likes brassy music? i mean music with imba brasses.
it's really very nice! :D

saw quite a few familiar ppl.
i sat with leon and farhan during concert.
1/2 of wind ensemble trumpet section le! xD
joey loo never joined us. :x
but at least he did come say hi to us. (:
3 of us did chat.
i like it, cos we dun meet super often, especially for farhan!

anw, i packed my super messy section cupboard today!
HA, no excuses for you all anymore! bleah.
i have been throwing tantrums at my juniors recently. :x
sometimes my fault, sometimes thiers'.

a lot of things happened today,
lazy to elaborate :x
that's why everything's not in order.

anw, got my geo lens le.
i wore it to concert, wore it for about 6 hours.
then! my eyes turned a bit reddish. :x
maybe because first time wearing it, hope so.
eyes feeling super uncomfortable now.

tutoring 2morrow. :D
going back to pri sch band 2morrow too.
the kids they are lucky luh,
they are going to hongkong soon, overseas band trip!
i am jealous, why i didnt get to go during my pri sch days? :x
haiz. fate. nvm, should be glad that my grand-juniors are able to go. (:

okay, enough of my endless talking.
good night! :D

it's pretty scary, it's crazy.
but i think i am also falling into your so called 'trap'.
i dun wan to be your next 'victim'.
you didnt do anything, but...
i must hidehidehide.. and make sure you wont even guess it.

2008-11-18T21:49:00.002+08:00

i know the reason already.
it's natural.
cos you are....

nobody is perfect in this world.
but you are near to perfection.
and i am not, i am imperfect.
so, i can forget about it.

but now, i am already very xinfu.
so i am already very satisfied,
and i hope that everything will remain the same forever, like now. (:

uncertain about it.

2008-11-17T22:27:00.005+08:00

today was alright bah,
seems like i am on-form today. (:
but i guess my range increases le! :D
happy happy!

but something to boooooooo.
because of my increased range,
i kept playing high notes for the whole day! :x
to the extend that there's a marking on my lips,
but i didnt realise.
luckily waiyen told me about it and ask me to let my lips rest.
thanks waiyen! xD
i need someone to control me la! :x

sightread onverture 1&2 today,
with shizheng, andy, waiyen, sharlyn and shu'e in storeroom,
when juniors having full band.
my sightreading sucks big time! :x
but it's fun to sightread with them :D

then had section lunch,
and suprisingly no one objected. (:
then sectional.
took section photos after that.
as i mentioned before, asking them to take photos is a torture!
wah, they hor, super monkey and super sick.
especially ah suan and mehmeh!
even yanqian cannot stand their sicko-ness. LOLS.

Photos! :D

sec2 and 3! :D
i told them to twist, then they eeyer me!
then they said i should pose three, cos i am sec3? lols.
and! seesuan wanted to point middle finger,
obvious luh! xD

take note of yangyue's right hand!
tsk tsk tsk.
and only i twist-ed. :x

sec1s! :D

girls in trumpet section! :D

boys in trumpet section.
joel act cute laaaaaaaa! xD

yanqian also, act cute laaaaaaaaaaaa! xD

full section photo! :D

there are more, but i lazy to post them.
and stupid blogger is (*^(&%$(*&_)*.
cmi ahhhhhhhh.
if anyone wants to see more,
feel free to ask me to send you. (:
there are a few more cute and stupid ones!

i admit it's difficult to take care of a monkey and sicko section.
they always make me damn pekcek, angry, disappointed, eccentric, lost, etc..
but... they are lovable too! xD
I JUST SIMPLY LOVE THEM TO THE CORE LA! :DDDD

I Love Amkss Trumpet Section alot alot alot! :D

2008-11-16T21:15:00.002+08:00

4 weeks to entrance exam of my religious study!
went to the 'lesson' today, in the morning.
at first i was super reluctant la! :x
but now i find it a bit interesting le. (:
studied part of the history behind the buddhism today.
luckily i chose to study in english, not chinese!
or i confirm fail liao, cos the chinese they used is super O.o difficult.
so dun be shocked that i took english. xD

but jialat part is a lot of things to memorise! :x
and there are a lot of words in japan language,
in the form of english, duh! lols.

then went to FD meeting, also something to do with religion de.
me and my sister have been ponning the meetings for whole year le.
no! for me is three years.
i went once/twice a year. HAHA. :x
and damn sad, my IC huifen is going to graduate to WD le! :x
cos she got married recently. and WD stands for woman division.
i am a YWD! :D
youth woman division. lols.

and i think i am damn slow and super outdated!
i today then know that huifen's husband is wensheng, who is sort of 'my teacher' for the study of the exam.
in the morning, i heard wensheng saying that he just came back from japan, during the study.
in the afternoon, i heard huifen saying that she just came back from japan, during the meeting.
then i asked huifen "you just came back from japan? my chapter leader just came back from japan also!"
then huifen said "issit wensheng? he's my laogong :D"
i was like HUH?!
but my sis was like "O.o you dunno ah? i longlong ago know liao lor!"
:x my mum said she told me before.
i guess i forgot about it bah, that's why.

they are a super compatible couple la! :D

okay, so today, everything's about my religion.
anw, marcus, let's chiongchiongchiong for entrance exam! :D
hope i wont fail, should not fail de.
only consists of mcq, true/false and close passage.

okay. i know you all dunno wad i am talking about for this whole post.
i think only marcus will understand. lols.

end of my update! :D

2008-11-14T20:32:00.007+08:00

super indecent section outing today.
6 out of 7 went, quite an achievement (:

before i went to meet my section,
something disgusting happened in my house.
stupid fucking red ants crawled into my house from the main door!
super disgusting can!
at first when we still dunno why,
my mum said that it's due to the reason that me and my siblings are very unhygienic.
oh please! -.-
then! we realised the reason.
damn those stupid ants, why not crawl into other houses!?
i made my mum super pekcek, cos i sprayed alot alot of baygon.
my house floor are quite oily now.
luckily they never crawled into my room, only living room and kitchen.
but i am really very afraid of insects luh! :x
especially i know the fact that red ants bite.

Section Outing
zixin is always super punctual.
she was the first to reach,
and she waited for us for veryyyyy long.
last to come is mehmeh! xD
naughty mehmeh...

then went to nebo in amkhub.
but guess wad? we didnt play any games. :x
we kept changing and changing games, but didnt play.
they were like........ little kids! O.o
and everything's in a mess, and we were super noisy.
and i was like.... TT
i was going crazy at that time.
i regreted suggesting nebo, should have gone to watch movie de..
haiz, nvm.
but of course, we did have some fun in nebo.
fun = laughing at stupid things.

then went to ntuc to buy foods, came to my house.
reached my house at 6 plus. so late le -.-
then watched tv and eat.
yangyue and seesuan lefted at 7 plus.
joel and zixin lefted at 8.

anw, joel and zixin,
i took a scandalous photo of you two just now. xD
ahahahs.
i noe joel deleted it le, but got 2 more! LOLS!
i not so bad de luh, will not post here de. xD

overall today's section outing still not bad?
cos at least we went out together.
next time mustmustmust plan le..

anw, yesterday while we were discussing where to go for section outing on msn,
something stupid/funny/cute happened.
below is a small part of the conversation.

YANG YUE ! has been added to the conversation.
[c=23]SeesuanN[/c]__ x : mehmeh!~
GERMAINEE ♥ : mehmeh!~
Zixin[c=18] ♥[/c] : mehmeh!~
YANG YUE ! : MEEEEEEEEEEHHHH !

i know, now your expression is -.-" lols!
but dunno why, i find it cute. haha.

damn sad also, didnt take any section photo today! :x
they always like that de luh, hide here hide there.
die die also dun want to take photo.
haiz, nvm, take photos on monday then. (:

and. amanda ong's spec is in my house now.
random right? long story. lols.

there's marine band workshop 2morrow.
hope it will be beneficial. (:

time to reply tags le.
weiting: lols! me too. i only can remember abit of the story only. the music tempt you, you tempt me! lols. xD
yixuan: dun like that say, i will shy de. xD lols! joking. but aiya, i also didnt help much. :x
breaker: i also know you are someone. some-two meh? lols. just say luh.. (:
secret: i am doing fine. :D lols. you really become darker ah? lols. i will know it on monday. xD my turn to ask le. how are you doing now? (:
breaker#2: you are?
faris: thanks yo :D
breaker#3: seesuah ah, not funny ah. HA.HA.HA so obvious is you luh. xD

that's all for today.
PS. i love my trumpet section and my juniors! :D
and my new name is zeming, given by my juniors. LOL.

2008-11-13T00:54:00.003+08:00

a lot of thoughts after reading winston's post.
hmmm, it made me think of the future.
after i graduate, after i have gone into the next phrase of my life,
will i still turn back and look at the past, which is now?

cannot say that i never enjoy and dun like my secondary school life.
though there are really a lot of ups and downs in my secondary school life,
but my life becomes more meaningful because of the ups and downs. (:

a bit sad to think and predict that i will forget the present, in the future.
not really forget, maybe seldom contact??

aiyaaaaaaaaaaaa.
why am i thinking so much?!
i am crazy le.
i still got ONE year okay!
and there are still many obstacles ahead of me leh...

and! ignore my previous emo post.
maybe i am too sensitive le bah..
if he never go out with them, there's something wrong le.
i guess he's either having fever, or wires inside his head are not connected properly. HA!
true right?
okay, i am not angry with him already. (:
but i saw shadows of brandon inside him...

and i dun have any rights to force him go eat section lunch.
cos i am not his mum!
and he surely has his own mindset and thinking...

2008-11-12T20:10:00.006+08:00

the so called section outing was fun! :D
i believe we did bond, which is a good thing.
just that guys in trumpet section didnt join.

after their band prac, went kfc for lunch.
then went back to primary school band to look around.
we were messing things up actually.
and tried different instruments?
ya luh, fun is fun, but hope we didnt spoil embrochure..
then yangyue went off to collect blogshop stuffs, with my umbrella.
then 4 of us waited for the rain to stop and went to my house.
talked and crapped a lot. xD
a lot of gossips also. lols.
so chatted until around 7.
it was raining heavily, so i sent seesuan to bus stop near my house.
and geraldine sent zixin to another bus stop near amkss.

i can understand joel's situation.
but i cant understand yanqian's situation.
joel went to class outing, and yanqian went to lan with friends?

so is this your reason?
so are you trying to say that they are more important than section?
really dunno what i should say.
one word - disappointed
you sounded like as if i will be in this school, band and section forever.
i am lefted with 6-7 months.
i am trying to cherish and make full use of the time i am lefted with.
i want to store a lot of memories with section, with the time lefted.
but you... you seems like you dun give a damn?
mind you, in a blink of an eye, everything will come to an end..

and wad i cant stand is that you always say "just this time".
you used it for manymany times le.
planning to use it forever?
yes, can tell actually.

okayokay, i am being too emooooooooo. :x
anw, my geo contacts is here le! :DDDDDD

andand, it's MY opinion. (:
thank you.

2008-11-11T21:09:00.003+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i miss AEM course.
i miss NYP.
i miss S.
i miss mr ying and mr loh.
i miss all the electrical components.
i miss the refreshments.
i miss everything in that school.

didnt expect myself to be so nostalgic over this. :x

built a solar car today! :D
built battery charger and flasher yesterday.
and got to solder electrical components! xD
soldering is a fun and interesting exprience okay! :D

anw, had another 2 diploma talks, one for yesterday and one for today.
yesterday's one was about aerospace and management de.
the talk was by mr ying,
cos he's in charge of the new and first batch next year.
this diploma is only offered in NYP.
and NYP is the first to offer this diploma in singapore. (:
then today was about infocomm telematics, by another lecturer.
hmm, it sounded quite difficult. :x

developed interest in engineering le! :D
especially in aerospace and management. (:
one main reason is because mr ying will be my lecturer if i take this course. xD
he's a damn super nice lecturer! :D

hope that i will enter NYP in the future.
but for the whole year, mt thoughts keep changing.
sometimes JC, sometimes poly. :x

how i hope AEM course will last longer. haiz.
dread to go back to normal routine. :x

2008-11-09T09:18:00.002+08:00

yesterday's meeting was fun! :D
there were jiayan, andy, shizheng, yanying, chonghui, tingrui, sharlyn, shu'e and me. (:
lols. okay, i was late, so i didnt really had meeting with them.
talked a lot at drive through mac.
then andy lefted to go anatha's house for deepavali celebration.
and we went to a fitness corner around amk hub to play games. lols.
played ice-man.
it was super fun, and all of us were perspiring like mad.
i was the catcher for twice.
once with chonghui, and once with shizheng.
me and chonghui took long time to catch finish all luh! :x
but nevertheless, we did. xD
with shizheng's one, we cleared damn fast. (:
and yanying treated us drinks. thanks a lot! :D
at 6 plus homed with shizheng.

i wasnt that tired, though i didnt sleep for manymany hours. lols.
but yup, after having dinner, i went to sleep.
cos my 'engine' cannot make it le. lols.

going to meet blogshop owner with yixuan. (:
then westwind concert with waiyen later, at esplanade! :D
heard that some amkss band alumni playing,
andddddddddddd, mr lun is playing also! :D
so this one, it's a must go. (:
plus it's free. ^^

okay. will update again later at night. (:

2008-11-08T10:25:00.002+08:00

yesterday was last day of conquer O! :D
but i guess my spa is... O.o super horrible.
and i didnt submit any elearning homework. :x

then took sectional.
after that sectional lunch, with everyone there! :D
first time? i guess so..
then full band, and sectional again, then full band again..
i think i still prefer jacob's luh! :D
though die fledermaus also quite nice..

when mr tan said he wanted to see and talk to trumpet section,
i totally sian diao, cos i thought it would be something bad.
i am toooooooooooooo pessimistic le! :x
not really something bad, but not good also.

anw, we got 10% of 'meat' le!
jiayous jiayous jiayous! :D

then rushed home and back to school for night tour.
overall was not bad bah.
just that veryveryvery tired. :x

okay. i got to go.
later still need to go for exco and SLs meeting..
heavy eye bags~ :x
it's okay.
i got lots of time to sleep already,
since conquer O has ended. (:

最熟悉的某生人。

2008-11-05T19:16:00.002+08:00

my whole life is upside down now.
feeling damn pekcek and lost.
i dun feel secured at all.
wonder if anybody will be there for me?
if this was what P facing for the past manymany months,
i guess i understand why she's so pekcek and....

looks like i am damn poor now, not in the sense of $$.
it's like i almost lost everything.

i wanted type a lot, but forget it.
one short sentence.
i am in emotional struggle now.
class, band, section, M, and FE...
i guess i need time to cool down and change my stupid mindset bah.

and lessons were okay for these two days.
AEM is not as boring as previous week's one le. xD
yesterday's one was quite interesting..
about clean energy - wind energy and fuel cells. (:
something to be sad.
next week will be the last week of AEM le!
and we are changing to another classroom somemore, to another block! :x
so today was the last day i saw him.
but! if next week i saw him at the campus centre, i will __________________. (:
fill in yourself. (:

anw, i got 15/20 for quiz1.
when mr ying told me, i was like "HUH?!"
then he asked, "too good, or too bad?"
i said,"too good". lols.
it's not because i am easily satisfied.
cos i didnt study for it!! :x
really need to study for next 2 quizzes le.
quiz2 on next mon, and quiz3 on next tues.
and mon and tues are two full project days, 9 to 6. :x
building solar car! :D

anw, i am damn bad just now.
i fell asleep when another lecturer was explaining to us a new diploma they are having next year.
it's telematics and media technology.
he showed us a video of year 2015, which IDA created.
it's something like wad they predict..
i abit dun believe, SUPER modern and advanced luh!
all the devices showed are like...... WOAH!
telematics is also under engineering. :D
if i am entering poly, i want to take engineering!
but, there are manyMANY kinds of engineering. :x
nvm, shall use use my holiday to do research about it. (:

and ya, weiting tried to wake me up, but failed. lols.
i woke up immediately after the lecturer finished his talking, when they on the lights. :x
i damn bad hor?

lols. okay. enough of my crappings.
SPA on friday :x
jiayous everyone! :D

2008-11-03T22:34:00.002+08:00

today's lessons were okay bah. (:
at least i did learn new things and stuffs. lols.

full band was.......... :x
imagine getting suanned for the whole full band.
feel damn sour now..
my sightreading is....... haiz.

and there's this fucker who was smirking away when trumpet section kena suanned.
he dun have any rights man!
if he is pro enough, he may do so.
but sad to say, he is NOT!
and not like as if your section is oh-so-good.
so PLEASE! know your limits..
think before you do...

went opposite with waiyen, yanying and shizheng.
then went to talk with shizheng at his house void deck for awhile.
then homed.

shizheng maybe transferring to trumpet section?
need to consider on too many elements le.
leave it to the fate bah..

and something random..
me, yanqian, yangyue and seesuan were standing side by side during fall-ing in. lols!

yup, that's all bah.
PS. my baobei juniors are just so cute, love them to bits! :D

sorry. feel damn bad.
i am the one who makes things big bah.
i am sorry.
but i still dun understand why..
fated enemies, maybe?

2008-11-02T21:43:00.011+08:00

you are damnnnnnnn..... argh.
okay. i give in.
i changed it for you already.
happy? (:
i am sooooooooooo damnnnnnnnn sorry!

funny, so many bloggers in this world siah.
speechless.
pro ah, make something out of nothing.

before you decided to say me back on your blog,
let me emphasise this.
i didnt say who i am referring to. (:
dun need so jidong one!! (:
and if you like that 'O' word so much,
you cannot say me back on your blog.
because i did it already. :D

dun need to ask, i also noe that you are referring to me.
ya, because it's MY FAULT to use words that you used, right?
sincerely apologise to you...

i am contradicting. hahaha! xD
really dunno why always pick on me.
oh well, whatever..

and many ppl will start to tell me to ignore,
dun go read and blah.
but i just cannot..

really dun want to add oil to the fire.
but.... okay, no point explaining.
cos to you all, i am just a fucking bitch who you all dislike to the core..
yayaya , i am a fucking bitch.
ohya, cannot use bitch.
need and MUST say in another form.
okay, i am a fucking female dog.

this is my first time i am scolding myself female dog.
so just spare me from another round, can you?

very sicked of all these.

the only reason why i still dun really like 3/4.

2008-11-02T00:35:00.007+08:00

went out with leon and bryant today. :D
walked around IMM.
then went to yong siew toh conservatory for a concert called
"All About Brass".
before the concert started, a brand 'Jupiter' promoting their instruments outside the concert hall.
and, duh. we tried! xD
i tried a sliding trumpet, damn cute please! :D
also called mini trombone..
i heard that it only cost $450.
i want a sliding trumpet! :x
they showcase-d a few ensembles,
then followed by performance by boston brass.
Boston brass rocks luh! :D
super pro, and i am veryvery impressed by them! xD

ensembles are not bad too.
but one trumpeter of a ensemble sounded...... hmmm...
leon was laughing away already.
cos tone of that trumpeter was super airy. :x
and! one girl trumpeter is very chio! xD

after the concert ended, went to queue up for boston brass's signatures.
LOLS! as said by leon, typical singaporeans. xD
took photo with one boston brass's trumpeter, with leon and bryant. (:
that photo was super blur, and i never stand properly and stand straight! :x

anw, i saw serene. lols.
one of my good friends in primary school.
and used to be in the same section with her in priamry school band.
but now she plays a saxaphone.. (:
but somehow lost contact with her le.
she cannot recognise me! :x lols..

i envy bryant and leon luh!
they are going band overseas trip soon.
and they are preforming at esplanade next year.
heard that commonwealth on 2009 july.
then xinmin on 2009 august.
i also want! :x
hmmm, okay, should not be greedy.
cos i did all these le. :x

faris: thanks for tagging! lols. you seldom show your existence.. :x lols. joking! xD
yixuan: lols! DBSK rocks luh! why dun put their song? xD i noe, if i really put, you will always on silent when you visits my blog. xD
wanting: okay, done! (:
deborah: pink skin nice right? xD lols. okay, i find it nice cos i like pink. 0.o LOLs. xD
weiting: lols. i got thought of putting band music, but put away the thought le. cos i feel that my blog dun suit band music.. but! maybe putting dbsk songs. xD lols! ya hor, maybe should put one pretty fly+oinkoink? lols! yixuan, joking de luh! i not so bad de. xD
marcus: thanks for tagging. (:

and now, photos. :D

leon playing.. (:

sliding trumpet is so cute right?! xD

us with boston brass's trumpeter :D

okay bah.
shall end here.
byebyeeeeeeeee everyoneeeeeeeee! :D

2008-10-31T23:55:00.003+08:00

finally finished editting new blog template! :D
i think i spent like 1 hour plus to edit new one,
cos of my forgetful-ness and careless-ness. :x
i deleted the previous one, without saving it.
nvm, since i got nothing to do also..
satisfaction! xD

today's lesson were okay bah..
i bought quite a lot of food to school today.
crazy, i seems more like going to school for picnic, not to study. :x
okay, exaggerating.. lols.

i 'ahem' life science today.
but i seriously cannot resist the temptation of going to band!
and at first i was damn pekcek with the fact that i gonna miss warm up,
and will only be joining them when they are working on pieces.
warm up lehs!
you might think "warm up only mah, wont die one".
but i know if i just play pieces without doing warm up,
i will only play shit and nonsense out of my trumpet.

we did chorales and pieces and many more today.
anw, you know wad's the trend of trumpet section since from the past?
we LOVE to talk, A LOT.
i dunno other schools' trumpet sections luh,
but i know amkss trumpet section talks a lot.
super talkative..
i remember few years ago like that le.
but not as jialat as now.
but seriously, i also cannot control my mouth. :x
why i love to talk so much?!?!
self control ah...

today's full band made me think of syf'2007 batch..
veryvery big, with manymany ppl.
kinda miss seniors again.
but i know it's different this time round,
cos i will be leading the section.
not like the junior germaine who kept hiding behind seniors. :x
jiayous, germaine!

anw, tutoring for my seciton resumes le! xD
okay, it's because we NEED a lot of help, that's why. :x

i want to rant on something!
i think yanqian's mama getting more and more (&)*^$)(*_-)(U*(&*%*%#.
she's somehow like trying to find ways to stop yanqian from going to band..
at first she wanted him to go overseas by himself during this holiday.
now she wants him to put braces! purposely de lor!
if he really put braces, then he really dun need and cannot play trumpet le.
cos too much pressure and tension le.
walao. i hate braces luh! :x
i will pray everyday that he will not put braces...

out with leon and bryant 2morrow! :D
enjoy weekends everyone!

2008-10-30T22:22:00.002+08:00

i feel that my life is very meaningless now.
if can, i think i should give it to someone who needs it more than me.
and i am really very greedy.
always jealous of this and that, who and whatever.
i dunno how to appreciate wad i have got.

losing of friends and blah have messed up my whole entire life.
especially they were my close friends in the past.

....(continue in wordpress)

things changed so drastically..
just months ago, i was still talking to you, during nomad.
and escaping from the com lab and loitering around school, with you..

okay, stop my emo nonsense.
i know i sounded like )*&^%)^#$)(*(&%*$,
but yup, my online journal. xD
and i need to ranttttttttttttttttttt.

anw, was quite pleased with my sec2s.
they sounded hmmmmmm, okay and so-so only.
but i can tell they are taking up their responsibilities le.
they somehow matured a bit le.
and they are teaching sec1s already.
but ya la, got A LOT of rooms for improvement.
but i heard that there are talkings of dirty stuffs in the section...
hmmmmm, do right thing at the right time. (:
but very disappointed in someone's attitude..
he will get it from me soon.
hope that 2morrow's full band will be a fruitful one! :D

life science was... okay la, not too bad.
i got my DNA. (:

talked and walked with ss and yy. (:
then after walked around hub with waiyen till 9 plus.
happy chatting session with her! :D
obviously we talked about band again. hah!
but seriously, i am damn interested in the history of amkss band!
since amkss will be 30 years old next year [i heard la],
band's age should be around there le bah..
if got chance, want to ask mr toh. xD

i think i got to go le..
i got piles of homework waiting for me to clear.. :x
good night everyone! :D

2008-10-29T20:36:00.002+08:00

hmmm, today was okay bah.

conquer O was, duh, boring. :x
sitting with yixuan made it better. (:

the AEM quiz that i took yesterday was......
i guess i will most probably fail bah.
and now, i dun even understand wad unit 3 solar thingy in the course le! D:
cos i was busy sleeping, daydreaming, looking into the other class, talking to weiting... :x
i dun want the next quiz to come!

saw S for both days, yesterday and today.
i actually sort of trying to pull myself back to reality le.
and today at first didnt saw S de, so never looked into next door anymore..
until renee told me to turn to my left.
i was shocked luh! :x cos he was just beside the window at that time!
and i was just beside the other side of the window too. 0.o
and when weiting turned to look after i did, S sort of 'caught' weiting looking at him.
LOLS! i was laughing like mad. xD
weiting said that S looked at her, and 'caught' her..
in the end, both of us got 'caught' by him for looking at him for quite a few times..
i dun dare to look le. :s

haiz, pull me back to reality!

anw, going out with bryant and leon this coming weekends! :D
we are so on luh! hahhah. xD
miss talking and ranting with them.
time for a catch up le! (:
i know it's going to be super fun! :D

these few days, have been thinking of that ______.
not possible anymore..
i am speechless about wad you said to me.
but when i visit that blog, i was jealous, sad, disappointed, pekcek, etc..
have been thinking of the times when we hang out together, how you pulled me out of the heavy rain, and many...
it felt like it just happened yesterday, and i just got to know you.
i guess you wont even give us one more chance bah..
indeed, perhaps it's a failed friendship..

anw, yixuan ahhhhhh!
CHEER UP! :D
i think the song they created for yixuan is cute. (: hahs.

lastly, before i go..
DBSK rocks luh! (:
especially yunho and jaejoong. :D
totally hooked onto videos le. xD

okay, byebyeeeeeee. (:

2008-10-27T23:38:00.003+08:00

update before i go read through my AEM notes. (:

today was a boring day, again.
went for morning jog in the morning at bishan with jiaqi again. :D

anw, i cleared more and more parts of jacob's le! :D
as in bar 1 to 66 luh, duh.
time extended to 3 weeks,
i guess with consistant work, i should be able to clear by 14nov bah. (:
*trying to be positive*

i also hope that my 3 baobei can clear,
to prove that we, trumpet section can de! (:

anw, i got hooked onto something addictive le.
guess wad?
it's dbsk! (:
didnt expect that i will get hooked by it.
but well, they are really very shuai, pro and everything! :D
especially U know yunho! xD

anw, a happy chatting session with marcus on msn just now. :D
just dunno why, i find him veryvery weird.
but i just cant say out why he's weird :x
i need to tell him the reason when we meet on msn the next time.
hmmmm, i think i am a bit cranky already.
cos i dun even understand why i am talking about when i am trying to explain to him.
and he dun understand why i am saying either. lols.

in my opinion luh,
when he is dancing that moment, he give me a very playful and cheeky feeling.
but when we talk, he give me either a super serious and strict feeling, or a emo feeling?
maybe not emo, something like in deep thoughts. lols.
hmmm, wad has it got to do with weird? LOLs.
maybe got i dun understand why he got 2 'sides'?
enough of my nonsense, before i drive meyself and marcus crazy. HA! xD

i am already in holiday mood le.
i dun want conquer O luh! :x

okay.
got to go hit the AEM w/s le :x
ppl hit books, i hit w/s. xD
and, i am super daring, 2morrow got quiz on unit2, i haven't even started on anything. :s haiz.

goodnight everyone! :D
sweet dreams!

2008-10-26T17:17:00.003+08:00

staying strong (:
believe in myself, believe that i can conquer that piece.

after out with family,
out with yanling yesterday, to vivo (:
simple outing and talktalks made my day.
did stupid stuffs lor, like seeing how ppl kissed. hahas. xD
anw, i felt relaxed after yesterday.
i have cooled down already! (:
thanks yanling! :D

anw, crazy clara came back to bandroom after her first paper on friday.
talked and played trumpet a bit. (:
i didnt know that she actually did read my blog!
only knew it when she asked me for the password for a post in wordpress.
bad ah, never tell me. xD
i miss her a lot luh.. (not trying to be mushy)
i miss all my seniors too :D
haiz, if only they are still in the main band..

although sometimes i got jealous because of this and that,
but sometimes i felt that i am still quite xinfu.
should treasure life. (:
having the sec4 seniors i had is considered as xinfu also.
always rant to them my unhappiness, asking for guidance in trumpet playing and juniors stuffs.
i am xinfu(:

anw, i practised trumpet yesterday.
was damn pekcek because of high B.
but today okay le, just that very.... digusting.
and! i can play some of the melody part of jacob's le. YAY! xD
practice hard! (:
jiayous! :D

2008-10-24T21:27:00.002+08:00

post deleted. (:
if you never get to see, too bad.
i shouldn't emo, cos i gave everything already.
if not enough, okay, I GIVE MORE!
i will prove you wrong soon.
and fucking dun look down on other ppl.

2008-10-24T00:30:00.002+08:00

now is 12.31am le.
but i will still say today. ><
okay, today was alright bah.
social grace and dining etiquette and blah.
i did learn something. lols.
but i felt like sleeping most of the time.. :x

then went to eat with weiting, yixuan, deborah and waiyen.
then waiyen went to bandroom and we took 88 to j8.
then deborah went off to town to buy her book.
walked around with weiting and yixuan, but dunno why sian sian one. :x
went home after that..

then went to meet the blogshop owner to get the bag.
yup, i got it le. (:
i know i will not regret buying it. xD

i sincerely wish and hope that you will be happy. (:
i guess that we have no rights to say anything now.
you are a very strong girl, if i were you, i guess i will break down until veryvery jialat.
6 ppl, still considered as mt gang mah??

and, mirotic by dbsk is veryvery nice! :D
i got same thoughts as yixuan.
when i first heard it at weiting's blog, i find it damn noisy! xD
but now i dun find it noisy anymore. (:

the bear with a watch i just bought just few days ago somehow spoilt. :x
at first, can tell the legs dropping out like that.
that i pulled a bit, both legs came off! :x
sad, then i tried to sew the legs back, its left hand came out. 0.o
but in the end, i managed to sew everything back.
just that the bear's legs and hands seems a bit dislocated. LOLs! xD
i sound like sadist. xD
it looks alright when it's in sitting posture. (:

and. i haven learn my 5 minor scales. :x
wah, siao liao.
die die..

i suddenly feel like replying tag, so will do it here. (:

marcus: okay! teach each other! it's a deal. xD jiayous! :D
to: C.Wavy: you are??
secret: hello! :D my results are.. duh, horrible. lols.. how are your results? anw, you can play de luh! must have confidence.. i am saying it, yet i dun have. lols. with hardwork and efforts, confirm plus chop can overcome this piece de. :D anw, it's a killer piece for me!! -.-
deborah: lols! finally showing your existance. xD hahas. thanks for tagging! :D
weiting: yup, veryvery nice! i listened to it for.... i think more than 20times in a straight row le! xD i am crazy, but really very nice luh, mv of mirotic also. :D

okay, i think dun be crazy le, really need to go sleep le.
scare 2morrow not enough energy for me to last through the whole day.
good night everyone! :D

my hua chi-ing

2008-10-22T21:55:00.004+08:00

stupid blogshop thingy made me damn fustrated and pekcek just now.
i went to clementi just now, but didnt get the bag from the blogshop owner.
argh! wasting my time luh..
hope 2morrow really can get it le.

anw, besides that, i am very happy today! :D

firstly, Congrats threefour for getting champion in class drama! :D
and mrs kok is going to give pizza treat. (:

secondly, especially that i saw that shuai ge again! xD
dunno whether that's his classroom or not,
but yupp, it's just beside the room where our lessons are conducted!
and! there are windows in between rooms.
soooooo. i got to see him for very very long.. xD
unlike the other 3 lessons,
i lost focus damn easily during today's lesson. :x
i practically kept looking at........ haha.

his shirt also damn nice!
adidas black one.. with two pink strips. (:

NYP is damn big luh, with so many students.
really got no idea how to find him using internet.
moreover i dun even noe his name. -.-

anw, yesterday me and weiting explored around NYP campus centre. (:
nice nice. :D
even got small shopping centre, with food court and manymany more. lols.
more tempted to go poly le. hehheh.

and back to shuai ge,
i think i should stop dreaming.
quite obvious he's around 18 to 20.
and. he wore a ring on his left hand's fourth finger. :x
but he's really very shuai! xD

haiz. 6 more lessons on AEM course only. :x

i think there's a loose wire in my brain.
so yes, ignore my hua chi-ing. (:

2008-10-21T20:14:00.004+08:00

dance course and AEM lesson today. (:

dance course was quite interesting, and of course fun. :D
i think 3/4's performance was very nice. yay! (:
two songs i got to know were nice too.
disturbia by rihanna and yesterday by leona lewis.
anw, i kept forgetting the steps. :x lols.

then went for AEM course.
refreshment was not as nice as previous's one.
but already considered very good le, since it's free.
i nearly fell asleep in the beginning of the lesson. :x
but i didnt in the end. (:
did theory and practical today.
anw, i saw that shuai ge again! :D
okay, i should stop my hua chi.

i wasn't in a good mood today.
after some blog hopping just now,
saw something which makes me _________.
but i shouldn't be _________.
because i said it's just a crush.

when i went to cycle with liting they all last monday,
when me and liting cycled a double bike together,
it made me miss huixian.
i remember how crazy huixian was when i cycled with her during this year june.
how wild she was, by waving her hands in the mid air as i was sort of riding her, not helping me to keep the bike moving.
but, i know i enjoyed her stupid actions. hahas.
i remember how crazy ow and me were, by going to huixian's house every single day during primary school days, doing the same routine everyday - eat, play poker cards, watch tv, talking about the guys we liked, etc.
it was super fun!
i hope that i can all these again.
but..... sort of impossible, because we are on different paths now.

and, seeing him happy go luck every single day, i really dunno how to react.
i wonder when all these will stop.
till now, i still dunno wad i did, why he's angry.
2 years worth of friendship..
i thought that it would be a very strong and long lasting friendship.
you are not angry with me, just that you dun want to talk to me, right?
tell me, so wad you want?
me kneeling down to ask for your forgiveness?
or jumping off a building?
seriously wad you want?

i need to cool down, calm down.

2008-10-20T21:10:00.002+08:00

i am very happy today! :D
yesterday i was very happy too! :D

yesterday went out with liting, at bugis street and bugis junction.
bought qute a few things. (:
was super satisfied to that fact that i bought a skirt type suspender. xD
yesterday was super enjoyable. (:

today's post exam activity was bowling. (:
i improved quite a lot, as compared to the past.
i remember this year lixin invited me, chiamin and others to her birthday party.
it was held at a bowling centre near her house.
and duh, we went to bowl.
you know wad?! i got nearly ALL ZERO. :x
almost all the balls i threw went into the 'drain'! sad luh.
but today i got a few zero only. xD
sense of achievement!

and. it was very nice of mrs kok to buy foods and lollipops for us! :D
and also telling me that she's glad to see me and mt gang okay le, and telling me not to let class dramas affect my friendships.
yup, true!
everything's all right le! :D
after that conflict, i learnt a lot more. (:
i learnt to treasure and care for them more le. ^^

then full band in the afternoon. :D
i thought that today's technical would be super hardcore.
okay bah. xD
then sightread a new piece.
we most likely playing it during next year's band concert. (:
trumpets need to keep changing mutes throughout the whole piece luh!
from straight mute to cup mute and back to straight mute.
over and over again.
i changed until gong, until i missed my solo part. :x

then sightread JACOB'S for the second time!
mr tan went at a slower tempo this time round.
heng ah! trumpet section managed to catch up! (:
we didn't silent all the way okay!
we did play. (: though with lots of mistakes.
but yup, we got alot alot to practice and learn.
jiayous bah!

we have taken our veryvery first step. :D

i realised something.
me and yanqian always keep screaming out our high notes! :x
wah, damn digusting.
must change, must change.

anw, i forgot to say something.
ALL THE BEST FOR O'S MY BELOVED SENIORS! :D
loveloves. xD

omg, i am damn mushy. xD

2morrow there's dancing thingy for post exam activity and also AEM lessons.
byebyeeeeeeeeeeeee everibodee! :D

2008-10-18T14:29:00.002+08:00

okay. i finished emo le.
i need to stay strong.
i need and must prove to those who think that i cannot, trumpet section cannot.
cos with hardwork and efforts, it will become possible. (:

i listen to jacob's until very giddy le. lols.
from yesterday night till now, all i listened is jacob's. xD
i am starting to like the piece le. :D

anw, i am using the blog i created in the past to post my rantings, and so called "personal thoughts".
so this blog will only contain happy stuffs. :D
i will try not to rant here. xD

www.mynumber35.wordpress.com

some posts will be protected.
yup. so if you want to know and see,
tell me and i will give you the password to that post. (:

i already posted one just now. (:

2008-10-17T21:02:00.003+08:00

i am afraid of what's ahead for me.
i seriously dunno what will happen.
will we get gwh again, or lose it?
if we lost it, what will happen?

Jacob's ladder to a Crescent..
this is even more difficult than Vogelhandler.
it's already a big problem to me.
and i still need to guide and teach my juniors.

believe it or not,
while sightreading it just now, trumpet section nearly silent-ed all the way.
we just played a few bars, out of manymany bars.
ha. i wonder how to survive.

i really never thought that we will play this piece for syf.
i thought it will be overture to candide.

listening to it over and over again,
deep down in my heart, i fear.
cos it's too crazy.

now, even tutoring stopped already. :x
what should i do?
i miss my seniors.

2008-10-16T22:36:00.004+08:00

today was a stupid day! D:
[warning: all rantings ahead!]

firstly, i dunno wad the fuck nicholas wants!
he's being childish, unreasonable and stupid!
just because of one stupid english paper2, he's angry with me, and dun talk to me.
i thought that since i passed english, as a seating partner, you should be happy for me?
but! you did the otherwise..
i am super disappointed in you, more than how disappointed you are in your results.
dun talk dun talk luhs! as if i care now.
you are the one who started it!
you childish freak!

free periods for the whole day! :x
of course, i love ssrp. (:
but it's too much, to the extend i am super bored! :x
it's like rotting away in class luh!
so first half of the day in school was really meaningless.

then! sectional in the afternoon.. even worse.
my blood is still boiling! D:
first sectional after eoy was horrible.
firstly i cant play like how i did in the past for NUTS!
thus i was super pekcek liao.
THEN, i didnt get full attendance, and 1 person left at 4.50pm,
when sectional ended at 6pm.
AND! discipline issues.
they didn't show respect at all!!
eh! i am your sectionmate or your senior?
wad i said are all jokes issit? meant to be funny huh?!
even my own seniors are adding oil to the fire..
doing things like purposely play clash chords when i am taking juniors for warm-up, which affects juniors' concentrations.
dun say by doing this can improve their focus!
bullshit! how can they concentrate when you are distracting them?!?!
and they also did something like saying those words which will make juniors disrespect me EVEN MORE!
fuck luh! if you were me, i bet you will be super angry okay!
i of course love to see you all come back to see us.
BUT NOT DOING ALL THESE!
you all totally ruined my day mann.
how pro!

and for you!
this is my personal journal.
so those are my thoughts and opinions. (:
not comments.

i am afraid i will die during 2morrow's full band. :x
miracle, please happen again.

i hope that 2morrow will be a better day.
ming tian hui gen hao! (:

2008-10-15T21:48:00.002+08:00

Post 200! :D

today was fine bah.
and i guess i confirm pass english le.
feel very relieved (:

sat with junming for almost all lessons today,
since nicholas never come school today.
my impression of him getting better le. (:
chatting with him in class is not bad too..
chatted about some stuffs in our lifes. lols. random.

went to nyp straight after school, on our own.
i ate a lot of refreshments! :x
paiseh luh, i noe i am damn bad.
but i am very hungry at that time, plus wad they catered is also very nice. xD
today's lesson was more interesting than yesterday's one. :D
i never fell asleep today okay!
and today's one is also more beneficial, learnt quite a lot of new stuffs. (:
a bit looking forward to next lesson le..
and, i saw a shuai-ge today! lols! xD

but the sad thing is... today i didnt get to see the sec1 and 2 combine band! :x
i tried to rush back to school immediately after the course ended.
but failed.
when i was running towards the bandroom, i saw ppl coming out le.
so sad right?!
i even ran from the bus stop to band room luh!
but i hope they enjoyed themselves, and juniors did learn things from their sec2 seniors. (:

and, i want to rant on something.
yes, you might see this, but i still want to say.
dun you feel that you are very unreasonable, for saying such things?
you did quite good in EOY okay.
yes, maybe it's still not up to your standard.
you are unsatisfied, but come on, you shouldn't say those stuffs.
she's your classmate, somemore for the 3rd year le.
plus! she didn't offend you lehs.
dun you find yourself very mean to say that?
please respect others, and respect yourself.

ahhh. help.
my mum is trying to convince me to take an exam on my religious study.
eoy just passed, and now i already need to study for AEM tests le.
now, add one more. :x

looking forward to 2morrow! :D
sectional consisting sec1 to sec3.
happy but,
i need to rebuild my playing soon...... :x
wish me good luck!

byebye peeps! (:
signing off,
2008.34.05 :D
[kope from ghasidah's identity] xD

post 199

2008-10-14T20:50:00.002+08:00

all results were released today.
obviously, and duh, i am disappointed.
i got loads of C5! :x
but happy thing is i passed everything, including my super horrible english.
and i really mean super horrible, to the extend you can never imagine.
a miracle happened.

but seriously, a bit cannot stand those guys le.
i dunno why they always like to use me as a gauge! :x
for the whole entire day in class,
i heard manymany times of
"shit! i lost to germaine! i need to jump off building! give me a pen knife, i need to slash myself!".
or "yes! i won germaine! woots!"
*going around, telling everyone*
i really dun understand why meeeeeeeeeeeee. -.-
and! dun say i act dumb can?!
not like as if i did well. -.-

after school went for the AEM course at nyp.
i nearly fell asleep during the lesson. :x
anw, it's a course on SOLAR AND CLEAN ENERGY.
not solar and green energy.
paiseh, my mistake. xD
they provided us with some food during tea break. (:
i am afraid i will regret joining. haiz.
still need to take 3 tests de luh! :x
in a nicer tone, those are quizzes, but with marks de. LOLS.
but i am looking forward to the projects! :D

anw, my trumpet playing now is SUPER JIALAT now! :x
sooooooo airy, tone like shit...
need to use some time to regain everything le. :x
jiayous germaine!

anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAIYEN! :D
stay cute and happy! (:
may all your wishes come true. ^^

shall stop here. haha.
bye peeps! (:

2008-10-13T22:34:00.002+08:00

today was fruitful! :D

went to bishan park in the morning with jiaqi for morning jog. (:
one round around bishan park 2 :D
i really hope i got determination to make this last.
we are going for morning jog on every weekends. (:

then in the afternoon went to meet yanling and shizheng to shop for the steamboat stuffs. (:
after that went to yanling's house to prepare,
while waiting for andy, chonghui and faris to arrive.
anw, yanling's mummy is very cute and high! xD
then had steamboat when they reached.
i ate quite a lot. :x

then suddenly started to play a game with shizheng.
but i dunno wad's the name for it.
it was fun! (:
slowly more and more ppl joined in.
even more fun! :D
walao, when i won, and they lost, they kept saying something like,
"supposingly will lose one win, then those who should win one lose.."
i am the one who supposingly lose de.
:x they suan me luh! sad. lols. joking! xD
they always wanted me to lose luh.

after that a bit no link, started talking about newyork trip and 2/5's class chalet. lols.
then played cheat after that.
for the final round, i caught shizheng cheating! :D
and fyi, the stack of cards is considered quite alot! xD
and i got a bit drunk, face and ears turned reddish.
cos i drank 5% alcoholic drink.
i now i am very lousy. :x

then bus-ed home with shizheng.

today was a fruitful day! :D
will post the photos when i am free.

byebyeeeeeeeeeeeee!
worried for results.

2008-10-12T21:51:00.002+08:00

went out with jiaqi, liting and xueting today :D
i noe it's a bit weird. lols.
at first they wanted to go escape de and i wanted to go shopping.
but in the end, we went to cycle. (:
anw, congrats to jiaqi, for being able to cycle le! :DD
i took a few photos of her when she was cycling.
next time then upload.
then had dinner together.
had a fun fun day :D

anw, i bought some clothes.
but! a bit not fit. :x
i decided le. MUST LOSE WEIGHT! D:
can use those clothes as motivation. xD

JIAYOUS JIAYOUS JIAYOUS! :D

haiz. i am very worried about my results...
i want holiday to end, cos then i can go back to band.
but i want holiday to last, cos i dun want to noe my results. :x

2008-10-10T20:57:00.004+08:00

i regretted for not being organised. :x
all the my songs, pictures, photos, documents are all in a big mess.
super messy. haiz.
need a lot of time to pack. sian.
anw, i just packed photos of band and section.
halfway only, haven complete.

feeling super mixed when i saw some of 2006's photos.
i used to have 3 sectionmates de luh.
dunno why ended up like this.
should i rejoice? or moan?
i cannot imagine if i got sectionmates now. :x
perhaps i wont be the SL of the section liao. (:
but haiz, forget about it.
it wont happen.

let me show you some transitions of trumpet section :D

2006

consists of 4 batches.
in clockwise - glenn, clara, iris, yanling, ruishan, tashphyll, yuqing, brandon, junwen, winston, liangyun and me. (:

during 2006's band dinner.
sad. my batch only left me le. :x

2007

2007 syf batch! :D
yuqing, glenn and liangyun graduated le. :x

this one got consists of yangyue, seesuan and yanqian le. (:
oh ya, where's janet?

janet quit le. :x

taken during last year's band camp. (:
then winston graduated liao. :x

this one got consists of new batch again.
joel, geraldine, wanqing and zixin. :D

then brandon, clara, ruishan and yanling graduted. :x
and this one is the present batch.
syf batch. :D

then eric transferred le. :x
but ya, this is the super big section photo!
7 batches! :D
very cool luh! xD
i want to take again. (:

3 years le.
time really flies...

I LOVE AMKSS TRUMPET SECTION! :D

2008-10-09T11:12:00.005+08:00

i wanted to post something during eoy, but cant.
but now i want to fulfil my wants. lols.

guess wad i want to talk about?
guess guess guess...

it's about bryant and leon! xD lols.
i noe luh, i very random.

both of them are super fun ppl to be with! (:
living in this Earth for 15 years,
they are the first batch of friends who cleared my misconception.
my misconception is all guys only go for looks. lols.
they didnt say to me, but they proved to me, without them realising it themselves.
okay, let's use this incident, which happened quite a few times le.

while walking in streets, sure got see very pretty ppl de.
so when i saw one, and after that girl walked past us, i asked them.
me: "eh. that girl very chio right?!"
them: "i never go take note de."
me: "why never take note?"
them: "just usually dun take note lor."

LOLS. meaning i am more pervertic than them. xD

in the past, especially in 2007, my misconception was there for very long.
but now, all cleared. hahas.
i dunno wad leon and bryant is thinking luh,
or maybe that incident was a coincidence.
but i believe they are good ppl. :D
sometimes i really wish that i am in the same class with them.
*imagine*
if really can happen, super fun luh! xD

so now my conception is - some guys only.
like someeeeeeee in my present class.. LOLS!
joking. xD but really got a few.
maybe leon and bryant also do that in their class??
i dunno.
leon and bryant, tell me you two got or not?! lols.

a few weeks never see them le. haiz.
let's go nebo and "study" again! xD
miss them, miss ypsb, miss sectionmates also. (:

i want to have ypsb again!

2008-10-08T22:20:00.004+08:00

elo everyone! :D
i just changed blogskin. random~

eoy finally ended today, with chem and geo.
but! i am not really very happy.
cos i didnt study chem, only geo. :x
cos not enough time!
i dun even noe wad i wrote for chem luh.
okay, i shouldn't talk about it, cos it will only dampen my mood.

on the brighter side, i went out with weiting and yixuan today. :D
i bought a lot of things.
luckily i am able to claim some of my money from my dad. xD
or else i confirm going bankrupt again.
i am very sian luh, 5 days of short holiday.
i want to go bandroom and practiceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :x
but miss chin not willing to open bandroom!
sad luhhh, i dunno wad to do for the next 5 days.

anw, the solar and green energy poly course starting on next tuesday. (:
i am going with weiting. :D
courses on every tuesday and wednesday until mid of November.
but you noe wad's the sad thing?!
next wed got sec1 and 2 combine full band!
i want to see my 7 juniors playing together luh.
but i have no chance to see, need to attend the course. :x

but on a happier note, go there can learn new things, make new friends, experience a little of poly life...
but most importantly, can spend more time with weiting. hahas. :D
i am looking forward to it! (:

life's a bit weird now, no study, no band..
very siannnnnnnnnn.
i wondered if bryant's eoy ended liao mah.
i noe leon's eoy ending this friday.
all the best! jiayous! :D

i am feeling super random..
i want to blog about lots of things, but dunno where to start from. :x

okay bah. i will blog when i got the urge and noe wad to blog.
byebyeeeeeeee peeps. (:

enjoy your holiday!

2008-09-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

off hiatus..

i cant resist the temptation to blog le. lols.
plus 2morrow also no school. hehheh. xD

hmmm, recently was......... no life?
i went home straight after school for 2 weeks liao,
with the exception of a few days.

yup, though i say "on hiatus",
i on com quite often. lols.
eh, i got listen to band music collections one okay!
i cleared one collection yesterday, meaning 45 band songs. :DD
i noe, it's super crazy. lols.
Les Miserables is very nice. (:
besides listening to music, i went to blogshop. xD
i did a super wrong thing at a super wrong time.
i regreted for starting to blogshop during exam period.
and now, very difficult to resist temptation. :x
but i did order something - a mickey mouse mp3! :DD
liting kena tempted also, then jiaqi is she last time got see before le.
so i am collecting it this sat.
i had a tough time waiting for the blogshop owner to reply my emails luh!
cos i was practically super excited. xD
so in the end, i getting a pink one, liting and jiaqi getting white one. (:

Summarised points
1)2 weeks ago, i think, i went out to study with leon and bryant. :D
we at least did some of our revision.
a pity that we forgot to take photo together. :x

2) i fell sick! cough until damn jialat. thus one day never go school, cos need to go see doctor.
my very first time going to polyclinic and see doctor by myslef. ^^ till now, i still haven recover, cos i have been secretly eating ice cream and drinking cold soft drink. xD

3) liting came to my house today, and both of us went crazy over something ________. then went to return library books [it's like - finally! after many weeks] and tried to find xiang si dou at the park opposite amk library. but, failed. :x nvm. liting, we shall try again soon! today is a super tiring day, but! it was fun. (:

4) dun need to mention about eoy. "eh germaine, how's your eoy so far?" "dunno. :x" lols. i everytime only will give this reply, cos i really dun noe. i regreted choosing that question for chinese compo, about youth olympic! :x crazy luh.

3) next week will be *(^&^$(^)*&+, with all the science papers, geo and one math paper.

5) few more days to the end of this torturing shit! xD and i believe B&S trumpets are also on their way to amkss and band room liao. muakakaka! xD

yup, that's about it.
need to chiong many things 2morrow. :x
so, byebyeeeeeeeee.
jiayous everyone!

ps. dun say "still have so many papers", say "left with these papers only. (:

on back hiatus. (:

2008-09-14T02:43:00.014+08:00

elo! [yanqian's way of saying hello. lols. ]
my blogis going on hiatus after this longlong post.
ohhhhhhhh, so sad.
but i die die also must resist this time.
cos i am running out of time for revision le.

a lot of happenings.
yesterday was junior's lunch time performance and band dinner.
today was lantern festival performance.
so happening right?!
but yup, we stepped down for exam.

i have decided le.
during this 3 to 4 weeks,
i will chiong studies.
BUT. i will chiong trumpet also.
ahhhhh. dun stop me or try to convince me.
i need to improve badly. :x
and this period is the best to chiong liao. xD
anw, i screwed until damn jialat today.
damn disappointed with myself,
and juniors for responsibilities and discipline issues. :x
at first i was still super high de luh. :x

okayokay, i will let the photos do the talking. :D

Band Dinner 2008 :D

yangyue :D

Zixin :D

Wanqing :D

Joel! :D
ohya, anw, his solos during lunch time performance were super good!
no wrong note or mis-pitching. (:

Marcus :D

Geraldine - sisters! :DD

Section photo! :D
wasted. 2 more ppl will make it a complete section photo liao. :x

guys in trumpet section who went to band dinner.
yanqian~ where are you..

sec4 seniors! :DD
clara, yanling, ruishan and brandon.

bmm Shizheng! :D
i am shorter than him by so much luh! T^T

bma Andy! :D

Ah yen! :D

now plus Shu e. :D

Michelle! :D
whenever i drink finish my water during full band,
i always ask her if i can drink her water. lols.
cos i drink a lot! when especially my lips very tired or i kanchiong. xD
you noe why her?
cos she always sit besides me. xD i noe i am bad luh.

Auntie yeeyong! :D
she's super cute, with her 'shut-up'. xD
she always encourage me to jiayou! (:

Sharlyn! :D
we two always rant to each other about our own section. lols.

tell you a secret.
she's secret! :D
lols. understand? xD

Lantern Festival Performance :D

you get wad i mean now?!
see yanqian's face.
do funny faces again.
forever like this de. :x

see see see!

girls in the section! :DD
yangyue looked funny, yet cute. xD

and a edited one. :D

these photos were taken way way before performance. i remember that time i was super high. but... though they made me super angry, pekcek and disappointed before performance and after performance, but i still love them plenty luh! xD

yes, we are a super small trumpet section.
but we are a happy section! :D

okay.
everyone jiayous on studying!
especially my that 3 sec2s and joel..
cos by getting good results, you all can come band to practice le.
then all of us dun need to worry anymore.

i will jiayous, because i want to have good grades and get most improvement award.
i will jiayous, because i am going to hack care about studies during holidays to chiong trumpet and section for syf.
i will jiayous, cos after eoy, B&S trumpets will come liao!
i will work for it. heehee. xD

with sooooooo many photos, you all wont get bored de luh.
so byebyeeeeeee..

on HIATUS!

2008-09-11T21:26:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhh.
blogskin spoilt, now msn's turn. :x
i just cannot login luh!

2morrow is friday le!
finally... band dinner! :D
hope that my appetite will be big 2morrow,
cos usually when i go to buffet, i only eat abit. :x
so wasted right?!
so must eat. xD

went out with yixuan and chiamin today, after maths extra class. (:
we were somehow wasting our time? lols.
yixuan ahh, remember to do the something hor! xD
she bought a pair of contacts today.
i told her that 2morrow go school wear better, can ask ppl help, cos me and pear also dunno.
but! she cannot resist her temptations. :x
she said that if she didnt manage to wear it, she will do something. xD
and in the end, obviously, she failed.
she didnt manage to wear it. :x
$3 wasted.
somemore we were in the toilet for maybe near 1 hour? lols.

anw, msn's okay le. ^^

okay. 2morrow junior band is performing for lunchtime performance! :D
everyone go support if you are free okay! (:
a bit crazy and hectic for them luh, one after another performance.
jiayous juniors! after 2morrow, you all will step down for eoy le.
gogo jiayous! (:

anw, i fell alseep today, during bio lessons. :x
really not purposely de, i am really too tired.
imagine you slept at 4am for 2 days in a row.
i did ______________________________, that's why!
it's worth it luh, to sacrifice my sleeping time for it. (:

okay luh, i go bath and sleep le.
maybe will do a tiny winy bit of maths ws bah. xD
*yawns*
i lazy liao, by will reply tags soon. xD

goodnight everyone!!! :D

2008-09-10T22:17:00.002+08:00

super happy now! :D
cos i realised that everything is just a misunderstanding.
i misunderstood wad he said that day. :x
"forget about me" lols.
yu guo tian qing le! (:

anw, just a short update and i need to go le.

1. today is my first time wearing contacts! for random de. i took damn bloody long to put it, somemore is zheng jie helped me put de. thanks a lot classmate! :D but the jialat thing is since not i ownself put in de, i dun think i noe how to take out! :x die die also need to take out luh. :x

2. today's sectional super sian! :x booooo. i need to think of ways to make it interesting.

3. clara oh, waiyen and andy yeo came to my house just now, just to see my dress. so wth right! lols. i am scare that i will look like a clown on friday, with the dress. but most probably wont bah. (: anw, the shirt's a bit not in good condition. :x

4. i only got little time to sleep this whole week. cos i got lots of things to complete! :x chiong ah!

5. it's the end, and byebyeeeeeeeee. :D

2008-09-09T20:35:00.002+08:00

i tell you ah, damn sadded.
my previous blogskin went crazy and became spoilt! :x
so i have to use this old one,
until i got time to change another one.

went out with my juniors today. (:
not bad luh, qute fun.
just that we walked and walked and walked until super tired.
we searched the whole far east plaza for the stuffs we wanted to buy. :x
somemore i today walked around the school quite a few times during PE.
anw, i bought a lot of things today!
and obviously, i spent a lot of money. :x
i bought a dress, 3 pairs of contacts (1 day de), and............
cannot say here. xD

i am getting more and more excited for band dinner liao! xD
and i just asked ruishan,
and she said that we can go her house before going to band dinner! :DDDD
she will dress us up. hehheh. xD
dress joel up! HAHA.

2morrow i going school to ask zhen jie to teach me how to wear contacts,
cos i scare. :x

and btw, there's a deal between me and yixuan.
i mustmustmust complete the whole geo workbook by next monday.
and i can get bubble tea and fries from yixuan liao! xD
hope she will not do finish? lols. joking. xD

okay, i go try try my dress le.
and must clear my huge pile of homework, or i will be dead 2morrow. :x
byebyeeeeeeeeeeee. (:

wad do you expect me to say and react?

2008-09-08T21:46:00.002+08:00

should i make this into a private blog?
i feel that i'm treating this blog as a diary,
which is wrongggggggggg.
i ownself pouring out my secrets luh. :x

today is the first day of term4.
it's also a weird day.
i didnt talk to him and him.
for the first him, i dunno wad he want!
he's just not willing to say wad i did wrongly. :x
jiu ming ahhhhhhh.

then the second him.
i just feel super awkward.
i dunno how to talk and look at him, like how i did in the past.
all i noe is to avoid him with all means i noe and i can. :x
if i say now, that i have forgotten everything single thing,
i am lying.
cos i am a human too. (:

very jialat, playing the same part, but seems like playing different parts.
pathetic.
ahhhhhhhh.
okayokay. think of number35.
thinkthinkthink.

today we did badly, let the band waited for us to get the stupid 2 phrases correct.
wth. D:

and mention 2 things and i will go.

thanks sharlyn for helping me to transfer the band songs collection to a disc and gave it to me!
thanks a lot, for your help! :D

and my dad really went to buy a camera for me luh,
cos i yesterday randomly asked him to buy.
so good luh my daddy!
thanks a lot daddy!
so now, with the camara, i can take lots of section photos liao!
wheeeeeeeeeeee! xD
i think my juniors next time confirm dun dare to come close to me liao. lols.

2morrow going out with juniors to get my dear 4 sec4s' presents! :DD
and me getting my band dinner dress. (:
section bonding. lols.
pardon me. xD

byebyeeeeeeeeee everybody! :D

ps. i am a happy girl! (:

2008-09-07T14:15:00.002+08:00

lalalalalalalala~
i am still very happy because of yesterday's JBF performance. xD
i just cant stop being happy when i thought of yesterday.
and i have been listening to the recordings of wad they played yesterday.
it's super nice luh!
i listened to it soooooooo manymanymanymany times le.
but i am still not sick of it. xD
it's definately better than those hip hop chinese songs amd blah,
in my opinion luh. (:

plus! i forgot to mention something yesterday.
i took photos with my YPSB wind ensemble sectionmates! :DDDDD
except that it's without farhan. :x
yup, so the five of us met after the concert to take photos!
symphonic trumpet section also took photos together!
ahhhhhhhhhh. all the trumpet sections are so coooooooool! xD
and i also went to the cricle seats to meet leon and bryant during the rehearsal time. xD
talk for a while. ^^
though very long never see them le,
but i still love wind ensemble trumpet section as much! :DDDDDDDD

i will post the photos when hamster send me. (:

2008-09-06T23:01:00.008+08:00

few days never blogged le,
and it's a good sign. (:
cos it's wasting alot of my precious time.
but sometimes, it's a need, not a want.
i need a place to pour out all my feelings.
i noe it will be useful to me.

since there are more unhappiness than happiness,
i will start with the happiness.

Congrats to amkss junior band'08,
and my FOUR dear sec1 juniors!
you all did amkss band and seniors proud.
for my juniors, you four did trumpet section, all trumpet seniors and me proud! :D
i love them loads luh! xD
and, i cried after joel played his second solo and his duet with wanqing in majestia.
you must be thinking i'm very crazy.
i cried because i was super happy, and i feel very glad at that point of time,
when joel managed to play the solo and duet.
cos it's the very first time joel and wanqing managed to play the duet together with the band.
and wanqing's lips is going to bleed anytime, swollen already.
first solo in majestia he screwed up, and i kanchiong like siao le.
but he proved that he can already. (:
majestia is not an easy piece, with all the high notes. :x
not forgetting zixin and geraldine,
both of them improved a lot, really A LOT.
and somemore zixin dun have band music background in the past.
seeing them improve bit by bit, day by day with their hardworks and efforts,
it's super shiok and got loads of satisfaction! :DDD
applause please, to my four sec1 juniors and amkss junior band! (:
i love amkss band and my sec1 juniors! :DDDDDDDDD

cute right?! xD
they are easier to take photo with. lols.

now unhappiness stuffs.
i have been thinking about it since yesterday.
yup, give up something is definately the best option.
it will benefit me and the section more.
i will stop being biased, and i will be firm.
for those who know wad i am referring to,
you all can delete away the thought that i like him.
the most if you all just want to say i like someone,
then i will say here, i like number35.
twofive'07 reg no. 35. (:
all i need now is time to adapt, i know i will be able to.

and i dunno wad's the mushroom thinking.
he's angry with me now, and i dunno wad's the reason!
and he's not willing to say somemore.
wad can i do now?
but, he seldom angry until like that.
so i guess, i must have done something wrong until very jialat.
or he wont be angry until to this extend. :x
for the first time,
i'm sorry, chonghui.

at first i very happy de lor!
but nvm, i should do like wad eric told me.
dun let anyone affect my mood! (:

all in all,
today is a happy day! :D
once again, congrats to amkss junior band'08. (:
and i love my sec1s loads, and i am looking forward to the combine band of sec1, 2 and 3. (:
it will be super interesting..
so sit back, fasten your seat belt, and here we go! xD

ps. i want to create miracles and history in amkss band and trumpet section.